Walking into Quicksand

Hah!

2010-11-16T23:52:00.002+08:00

hah! hospital seremban climb in 58seconds. beat that.

Five Reasons to Die by Friday

2009-07-09T16:20:00.002+08:00

1.) i have to prepare a slideshow for the Integrated Medical Seminar

2.) i have to prepare two case summaries and one case report

3.) i have to repair my research questionaire

4.) i have to cover the ward 'cos DK's ward is... well, DK's ward la

5.) i have not done any of those

goodbye cruel world! sob sob sob. haha.....

Some Pictures From A Different Life

2009-05-17T21:07:00.002+08:00

gah! another long weekend at seremban. didn't wanna go back. had a drinking party. puked. stupid rufah. soooooooo petty about the 4 Kings rules. kept on sinking shots into my cup when i got drunk and started running my mouth in violation of those rules. gah. so puked la. but anyway. productive weekend. (so me thinks.)

here are some pics from our seremban life:

ms Kow there suddenly found a very interesting pebble

me and mrs Ash singing lady gaga for howai's birthday

yilin's birthday dinner. celebrated at serembans premier eatery! (snicker, snicker)

dancing!!! ohno! haha...

my housemates! L-R: me, lipjeen, feibing and the boss, howai! =)

Ears (and Good Taste in Music) Don't Lie

2009-04-24T06:03:00.002+08:00

see, it started like this, one of the year's most anticipated album was going to be released. and i being a malaysian, did what we do best. i bought it from our friendly neighbourhood pirateman. it was chinese democracy by Guns 'n Roses.

i had their greatest hits album but didn't listen to it too much lar, so there's plenty of songs i didn't know, but oh hell, it's GnR man! so i bought that damn CD.

wah, it sucked man. i mean horrid.

then this evening i was busy churning out reports for the internal medicine posting. then there was this GnR song on my itunes shuffle.

"hey! not bad!" thought i. this new song: quite nice arh. maybe i should give them a chance.

nope! turned out to be 'Civil War' released in 1990. not by the new GnR with only the dopey Axl Rose left from the original lineup.

see! sometimes music these days really don't stand no chance sia.

Oh, Ming Wai~

2009-04-18T02:46:00.005+08:00

mingwai! we gotta kill each other one of these days.

Just the Surface

2009-04-18T01:45:00.002+08:00

ya well, i may not be very photogenic. sometimes i think that cameras are better left at home.

went to the beach today after our last posting at the Port Dickson hospital (loved that place, bee-tee-dabalew).

geng yi, who i've taken to calling 3G brought his really nice camera. was very thankful to have a few pictures of our 'lil seaside escapade, but, like i said sometimes cameras are better left at home.

it's like... i dunno man. like missing the point completely.

beach is:

sea

salt

sand

sampan

trees (was it casurinas or something?)

slacking together, telling stories

old memories from childhood

sampah merata-rata

and maybe the odd crab or two

you know you've missed the point when you say, "yeah we went to the beach! took lots of photos man!!! oh yeah, and also, it was quite nice"

Ponteng

2009-04-15T17:33:00.001+08:00

gah, i didn't go to class today coz i woke up with a throat feeling like i just swallowed a mouthful of ground glass.

gah. sorethroat sucks. don't sing so much lorh.

Hungry

2009-04-15T01:15:00.002+08:00

lol, i just watched supersize me...

and i really feel like eating a big mac!

haha...

haiz, into yet another week of Internal Medicine. hey look! there it is! (peers into the distance) depressive moods to colour my day, right on schedule.

The Post About This and That... oh, and also THAT.

2009-04-06T21:51:00.004+08:00

whoah! it's been a really really long time since i've updated my blog. gahz! actually, the blog is not the only site i've been neglecting.

i just logged into faceboob today, the first time since i've got to seremban. and i've been here for a month and a half already.

so! how have i been? well, for starters... i have... CURED MY WARTS!!!! tadah!

seriously, if you've got to go for cryotherapy, that is getting shot at with a fine stream of liquid nitrogen, you'd be cheering too. okay, uncomfortable stuff out of the way! on with real updates.

i'm staying at seremban 3. that's like a housing development that is quite deserted. staying with Koo Ho Wai (the boss), Young Fei Big (big) and MOAO (my one and only). it's been a great, dynamic house-sharing time so far. we take turns to clean up, cook, wash up, etc etc... so, no fights or such, or no argueing over how much rent to pay.

i must say that i'm pretty proud of us. coz all our parents just abandoned the decission-making process to us, and trusted us. so we sought out the house (well, howai did this bit), asked for renovations on our own, negotiated the rent on our own (howai too), applied for streamyx on our own, came up with divisions of the rent and utilities bills on our own, and so on and so forth la.

no parents to tell you this or that! feels great man. feels like growing up. feel adult. for real. now i realise why the CEOs get paid so highly. the task of making decissions is never easy.

anyway, living in seremban is fun larh. but going to uni for class isn't. we spend about as much time in the hospital wards as the uni itself.

it's a blessing that we only do our wardwork and clerking in the mornings until lunchtime, because the place is a sauna in the afternoon.

we have case presentations, where we stand around the patient that we are discussing, then we get questions addressed (or shouted) at us. aiyah, but i think i deserve the scolding la. i somehow cannot think properly in the mornings, especially under such pressure, i find. haiya! some lecturers are quite strict la, but some are very understanding. whatever la. life's like this.

i miss all my friends la!

gah, it was teik zhen's birthday on the fourth! and i messaged him la. haha.brought back all the pleasant memories la. then i replied to mervin's wall tag. how i wish i were back in Catholic Junior College Hostel, or back in Victoria Hall and Victoria Junior College, or back working at Jobstreet and BASF. or back at IMU bukit jalil. haha.

fun times la. how long since i've heard from ET man? or written a reply to ngee zheng? called yeekiat a chibai? given a call to qadir or shi yuan (the chi ko peh)? or talked to seng chye and kelvin? jankee!? merv? brain, chongbing and kwan are busy collecting placentas or something more disgusting than that (like eating them). sanjeet's probably getting cosy with his gay manager at dome. haha.

i guess for me that's how i define my friends. if i can think back about all the rubbish we've done and still smile, then you're a friend la. simple right?

of course, not forgetting family! and lipjeen, who is in between family and friend, but somehow just as precious.

anyway, letting you all know i'm fine! thanks for reading (if you guys still are)

and oh!!! go listen to Kings of Leon!!! they freaking rocks-a-logy awesome man. i think seng would cringe at their music, but oh well, he listens to tibetian music being the llama that he is, so ignore his protests.

Sex On Fire - Kings of Leon

(ignore the visuals, just listen okay)

the new u2 album is no good, the new franz ferdinand album sounds the same, i still don't like take that (goody-goody manband) no matter what my mom says, the killers' day and age album is boring, the cure is oddly interesting especially since they have a double cd greatest hits release in which the whole 2nd disc is an acoustic reflection of their hits on disc 1. the very best of mtv unplugged discs 1, 2, and 3 are full of awesome songs. a must download! (oops, i mean must buy)

haha... okay, that's my twocentsworth. but since it's the internet, it's free. tahz!

PS. oh, and go check out neil gaiman's The Graveyard Book. =)

Can't Sleep

2009-02-15T03:42:00.000+08:00

... sighz.....

Gluttony

2008-11-10T00:14:00.002+08:00

gah!!! gluttony! shall try to get some exercise down. (crosses fingers)

gah, i love my shoes.

A Warning

2008-11-04T02:06:00.001+08:00

WARNING:

IF YOU HAPPEN TO BE A MOSQUITO IN FLYING AROUND IN MY ROOM, YOU WILL STARE DOWN YOUR DEATH IN THE FORM OF A CHUBBY CHINESE BOY.

haha... random.

F&N - Deepavali Week (kinda)

2008-10-30T01:20:00.002+08:00

you know, even when you just live everyday and do all your mundane everyday-ish things, you discover things about yourself?

i found that out today.

i like old stuff! haha. serious!

i turned onto channel 412 on astro, cinemax, and i managed to catch "Bridge Over The River Kwai"

man, i was so excited. i was rivetted for at least 2 hours. it was a good show! it ended with everyone except the bad guys dying, and yet it still conveyed the honour of dying, determination and sacrifice. i mean, what the hell is wrong with shows today?

when was the last time spiderman died? i mean, there was one scene showing spiderman trying to leap from one building to another, just to see if he really lost his powers. he fell at least ten storeys onto the hoods of cars and walked away with a sore back.

aiyoh, c'mon la, people lift shopping bags already got herniated disc lorh. people sneeze also can have non-stop epistaxis lorh... (if you're taking anti-platelet drugs la) imagine spidey lying there with a gearstick, well, sticking out of his chest. haha.

anyway. about old stuff. old cars rock man!!! like the '69 'boss' mustang, the AC Shelby Cobra. and OLD TEE SHIRTS!! wouldn't sleep in anything else. and the older the wine, the better! (although for all the good that does, i can't tell the difference). vintage guitars, 18th century castles, aged kimchi perhaps? even older girls! haha... lipjeen is a wee bit older than me la.

anw, my point is, this applies to music too. i guess to appreciate today's music you have to listen to the pioneers!

for example, these guys!

Honky Tonk Women - The Rolling Stones

This and That

2008-10-22T22:56:00.003+08:00

garh! what a drag! we've just dived head-first (brain left behind) into the Central Nervous System. gah.

lemme say it again! GAH!!

oh well, on the other side of things, there's things that keep life pleasant even in the midst of all that.

like seeing littlemisscutekow every morning!

talking shit with my mum.

and cooking our very first dinner in subang with my family. i made a big omelet, my brother teriyaki beef, and my dad impressed us with his skill in steaming up a frozen otak-otak.

and performing Superstar (Lupe Fiasco) acoustically with seng chye.

and then today: hosting the Bachelor/Bachelorette thingy with praveena. i tell you, if ever i have to MC, it would be with her. had a good time. but unlike Superstar aforementioned, there wasn't like a feeling of satisfaction of a job well done. coz we dragged it too long for teck jian to stay around to present his gift, and we forgot to tell the crowd a lotta things, and the crowd all started shouting, "LAME!! LAME!!" at me.

haiya. oh well. makes life interesting.

OOH!! OOH!!! CSU video on the sensory system was hilarious! i tell you, the whole CSU group burst out in laughter (quite explosively, in fact) literally at the first scene of the movie!

it was Dr Edy something la. his face arh~~~

A Touch of Genius

2008-10-14T00:28:00.004+08:00

i've been reading a lot lately. oh shush you naysayers. i know i'm supposed to be studying. but while i was at korea, i've read bram stoker's dracula and finished john grisham's the street lawyer. at home i've treacherously read two books at once, a few roald dahl short stories while reading some from neil gaiman.

the most mundane? john grisham. he just doesn't cut it. not like salman rushdie. he brilliantly sets words into order such as to paint a picture of a character's emotions, mixed and all a-screwed as they are. it hits such a resounding homerun in me, that i find myself nodding in agreement.

but enough of him. i'm reading neil gaiman's short stories right now. and they are an absolute joy. short stories are one of the best things in literature. a short story, compared to a full length novel is like having a minature ship in a bottle along side a full-sides yatch.

anyway, lest i bore you, the first few paragraph of neil gaiman's 'shoggoth's old peculiar'. i found it particularly funny:

Benjamin Lassiter was coming to the unavoidable conclusion that the woman who had written A Walking Tour of the British Coastline, the book he was carrying in his backpack, had never been on a walking tour of any kind, and would probably not recognize the British coastline if it were to dance through her bedroom at the head of a marching band, singing "I'm the British Coastline" in a loud and cheerful voice while accompanying itself on the kazoo.

He had been following her advice for five days now and had little to show for it, except blisters and a backache. All British seaside resorts contain a number of bed-and-breakfast establishments, who will only be too delighted to put you up for the "off season." was one such piece of advice. Ben had crossed it out and written in the margin beside it: All British seaside resorts contain a handful of bed-and-breakfasts establishments, the owners of which take off to Spain or Provence or somewhere on the last day of September, locking doors behind them as they go.

He had added a number of other marginal notes, too. Such as Do not repeat not under any circumstances order fried eggs again in any roadside cafe and What is it with the fish-and-chips thing? and No they are not.

That last was written beside a paragraph which claimed that, if there was one thing that the inhabitants of scenic villages on the British coastline were pleased to see, it was a young American tourist on a walking tour.

hahaha, i tell you, this neil gaiman is a rockstar.

Life As We Know It...

2008-10-09T23:20:00.002+08:00

...

... will cease to exist.

gah, how many times have you heard that in movies. "oh batman! please wear your batsuit! if you fight crime if you birthday suit, life as we know it, will cease to exist!"

each one of us deforms life around us. some in small ways (littering in KL = insignificant contribution), some in harmful ways (secondhand smoke), some in big ways (giving prof ong a vicious flying tackle that breaks his feeble back).

anyway. i'm just musing.

there's so little to laugh about these days. you could spend your time with jonathan au, but be prepared to slap your forehead more often than healthy.

or you could see this.

Pictures!

2008-10-06T22:41:00.002+08:00

rehearsing for the malaysian studies thing! omg. that week, as kelvin summed it up perfectly, was the week where: we jammed too much, performed too much, drank too much alcohol, slept too little, and studied to little.

our dear 'ol professor ong and me on stage at the malaysian studies carnival. wonder when next will i get another photo opportunity with him. goodness knows i'm not on the dean list. haha.

if you can guess where we are, i'll buy you a teh tarik.

my father spoils another picture in korea. haha..

i tell you!!! my pants were like ali baba pants! i could fit a whole freakin turkey in them.

MIA

2008-10-06T20:55:00.003+08:00

whoo!!! where have i been?? it's been hectic hectic hectic!!! whoo!

i had a week's break for hari raya, and i spent five of those days in korea. as a result, i've been running around non-stop and it's been a really high octane past two weeks for me. no breaks. not enuf sleep, not anything.

the week before the raya holiday was the malaysian studies week, and it really pushed me to the limit. die. luckilly it ended on wednesday. then that weekend i had a single song performance for rachel at the Noise and Movement event, and then i had to put up EIGHT songs at my fathers event on saturday! madness! damn fucking tiring! we lugged all the equipment from IMU to sg buloh and back. we finished at midnight. tired tired tired.

and then! the next monday was lipjeen's bday. and then tuesday was our 'own' celebration. happy, right? but i tell you, there's a certain standard wan if you're celebrating for your girlfriend. haha.

the korea! it was fun! haha...

i tell you... the place is really impressive. pics for all these things up soon. bye!!

give lipjeen a hug for me if you see her okay! haha.

My Goodness, My Guinness.

2008-09-16T02:58:00.001+08:00

hmm... i've just realised... it tastes kinda like soy sauce!

Just a Quick Hello

2008-09-09T14:39:00.002+08:00

hi guys. after a while of not posting, im just dropping by for a quick hello.

hello.

i got back from PBL in the morning and i've gotta work on my GP posting portfolio.

busy busy busy!

New Semester

2008-09-03T00:11:00.002+08:00

ooh... today is the first of the new semester. whoa. musculoskeletal system. all bones, joints muscles, movements, innervation, and all the blah blah blah. today's lecture by nilesh was, in one word, was heavy. i mean heavy heavy man.

i can't believe we will have to struggle through this.

it's depressing, frankly. gah gah gah!!!

i'm really desperate. if you're reading this, please say 'yes' okay?

F&N - Merdeka Weekend

2008-08-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

i realise that i haven't been sharing music with you guys for a while now. so, this Friday Nite Noise for the Merdeka Weekend. well, technically it is saturday already, but i'd like to think that some places, it still is a friday, for examples in places where they recycle calenders or where the people are too cheap to get new batteries for their watches. haha. maybe you like friday better.

anyway, this is:

Bleed American / Salt Sweat Sugar by Jimmy Eat World

as usual, click on the link, hope you like it. it's an old song, but it just popped up on my shuffle order on the way home, and it's just so fucking good.

Euphoria, Diarrhoea and a Car from Korea

2008-08-29T21:03:00.003+08:00

euphoria:
ooh, i went to euphoria last night to celebrate melvin's birthday. haha. it was a real nice place! the deco was good, according to my brother, the girls around were hot (but i was busy not paying attention because....) the drinks were FOC courtesy of melvin, and the music was too loud.

i went to sleep at 4 in the morning today, after having a lengthy goodnight call with lipjeen (i'm lucky, i know) and i woke up at one. my neck feels like it's been twisted and wrung like a piece of wet sarong by Malek Noor. gah, me and my slothliness, and my horrid sleeping position.

diarrhoea:

malaysian communications and multimedia commission, or SKMM, (abbreviations of government bodies in malay have lotsa 'K's for all the 'Kementerian's, 'J's for all the 'Jabatan's, and in this case an 'S' for suruhanjaya) has proved that it truly deserves its big bold capital 'S' in front of its name for banning the Malaysia Today website.

it is a site where malaysians can read all about the truth behind the government controlled newspapers.

i thought of putting up the mirror link for you guys here, but i guess the AssKMM caught up and banned that site too. for the record it is http://mt.harapanmalayia.com/. funny thing is, read out loud, the link is 'empty harapan malaysia dot com'. haha.

car:

has been making gentle knocking noises. it's nine years old now, and like a dog, in human terms it must be 63 by now. while some cars, like mick jagger and recently jimmy page who keep on rocking and drugging well into their old age, my relic from korea is slowly breaking down. gah... awaiting replacement parts for some transplants.

food awaits~~~ bye.

Is This Mike ON?

2008-08-28T01:42:00.003+08:00

eh, hallo guys. long time no type.

how have you been yeah???

me? well, i've been fine. feeling like a recluse. just damn lazy to go out la recently.

ohyeah! before i forget!!! a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! TO:

SHI YUAN!!!

QADIR!!!

(and just coz i happened to be on facebook: and saw it)

TANIA!!!

ah, where have i been? well, my computer has been attacked by a virus. so i damn lazy wanna go online la. been playing the guitar, and then trying to study a lil (coz i barely passed my previous exam) and then been playing games lorh...

and reading the papers. although i don't know why i should.

maybe it's the only way i get that wonderful rojak of feelings. yup, that should be it. can get it nowhere else.

even a cursory glance at the headlines and titles of the news pieces can give you heady mix of cynism, comic relief (especially if they're talking about politics), uttter hopelessness, depression (if you think about malaysia's future) and even a sense of hope (I'VE GOT TO GET OUTA MALAYSIA).

i mean, there are campaigns to encourage people to fly the malaysian flag. for what? so maybe if i stick a flag atop my car will the traffic policeman let me off with a warning instead of taking my rm20? if i fly the flag, tell me what i should be proud of.

for everything anyone tells me, i can tell you 3 reasons why i'm ashamed of malaysia. and God forbid if i actually read every piece of news written in blogs, in the papers, or on the grapevine, i would offer you odds of 1:10 at least.

aih aih aih.

oh yeah, olympics. how not to mention it. china is just so extreme. i mean all the stories of how much effort all the participants had to go through to be part of the olympics. smile training, months of rehearsal, stripping naked so you can be in the correct measurements, it's all mental.

you know that guy who lit the fire?? he trained for months at 2am in the morning in the bird's nest stadium so that noone would know. he even lied to his wife about it, saying that he was at work. imagine how worried she was! haha.

anyway. enough ranting.

BYE BYE BYE BYE!!!

not again!!!

2008-07-18T11:10:00.003+08:00

it happened. again. GAAWWWWDDD!!!

i locked my keys in my car. wah, bloody stupid...

i've just had my selective 'exam'. (easy)

and i'm waiting for my summative result (die die die!!! BANZAI!!!!)

and i locked my keys in my car.

stupid stupid stupide.....

blearghz....

oh yeah, coincidentally, i'm very sick. i've got pharyngitis, and it's bacterial coz i've got fever. i got doxycycline and dextromethorphan. just for you guys that read this and are spurred to do a little bit of reading up.

if i've typed this wrongly...well... human error larh. tah!!

NEW POST NEW POST!!

2008-07-16T11:25:00.002+08:00

ohno ohno!!! low battery!!! i'm using joon's laptop while at SR3 at imu... listening to presentations about patient safety. (boring) i myself has just given mine (even worse)...

la la la... take care everybody!!!

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MING WAI

Early Retirement

2008-06-19T00:17:00.003+08:00

shall study, shall not blog... shall study, shall not blog... shall study, shall not blog....

ah, what the hell.

these days i've been playing guitar quite often. to relieve stress and to relieve boredom and just pass the time. and after all that, i found the answer to the question, "how long do guitar picks (or for those of you stuffy guys, 'plectrums') last under heavy use?"

well, the answer to that is, not that long.

case to point, my yellow tortex pick. haha. here it is alongside an almost unused green tortex pick.

which is kinda sad actually. coz it's the pick the lipjeen bought me, outta whim. she thought it was cute (it is). sweet girl right? anyway! as you can see, i've used it a lot. by chance that it's hard enough to give a good picking response but not to stiff to make my strumming sound like a retard's (anthony's). but alas, i'm retiring it. what was once 'the wedge' is now a round bottomed pick. i didn't know it was that bad till i tried another one.

so, enjoy your retirement, you faded, round-bottomed yellow turtle.

FOUR!!

2008-06-10T02:31:00.006+08:00

tsk tsk tsk... ming hui, ming hui. you managed to generate quite a stir there. haha. well. if anything, a blog (or a diary) serves as a camera of the mind, letting us have a peek at its inner workings. some things i've written i've regretted (such is the nature of time and the human) and some i feel is still the truth. some were of thoughts now changed, some of them disappeared, some of them remain the same.

ANYWAY!!!

today me an lipjeen had a small and quiet celebration of our FOURTH anniversary! whoohoo!!!

what a milestone!!!! =)

just like a birthday, it still feels the same, BUT... BUT!!! it's important to take time and acknowledge the person who made it all possible (no, not me you idiot) LIPJEEN!!!

she's just the greatest! i'm proud to say that i love her very much. and she means the world to me.

she's a very very good friend, a faithful listener (when i'm not boring her. haha), my makan kaki, a fellow insomniac (no more, sadly), the one who racks up my phonebills (just kidding!), the cutest girl i've ever set my eyes on, the sweetest person i know (wouldn't hurt the person who hurt-ed the fly), terrified of cats and dogs so thankfully i'm not a pet person, is not too girly, but not too manly either. haha. and totally adorable. haha... i've never cheated, and neither has she (or so i hope)

she has tolerated my music, me being always late, lame, silly. me being a jerk. or an emotionless block of cinder. she's tolerated me pushing books and music at her, only to have her push the mandarin language and chinese serials back at me. haha...

couldn't have asked for a better person to share these past four years with.

i've cycled to your place, sang to you (while you were busy plugging your ears), got bitten by mosquitoes at fort canning with you, taken countless busses, watched many forgetable movies, lunched, dined, sandwiched, ran, laughed, grumbled, gossiped, shopped, wasted time, studied, helped, telephoned, SMSed, emailed, wrote for... and this list will only grow. ohno.

let's just have fun. burn the bridges when you get to them.

cheerio!

Oh, This and That

2008-06-05T19:45:00.004+08:00

today is yunn cheng's birthday.

i'm sure they'll be having a good fun celebration somewhere. but it's okay. they don't invite me.

actually, noone invites me for anything anymore, except kelvin, anthony and co. la...

not the Cina gang, not the english speaking gang, not the CF gang, not the Indian gang.... or whatever gang la.

not for movies, not for gym, not for lunch, not for anything la. i bet "eh! we forgot to ask minghui if he wants to come lah!" is the last thing on everybody's mind.

well, except for the jamming gang la. and even within the jamming gang, seng is half Cina, so he won't let me in on anything that's going on anyway.

but actually, that's fine by me. haha. i've made my peace with it already. i don't give a flying fuck anymore. besides, you all chiang hwa yi here and chiang hwa yi there, bugs the HELL OUTTA ME. i think i wouldn't get invited to my own birthday dinner either.

haha. luckilly there's still volleyball and basketball.

perhaps i've turned them down too many times. haha... i'm lazy, that's why.

all you assholes only think of me when you need transport. to sri petaling larh, to mid valley larh, to wherever lah.

so from now on, tell you what. since the price of fuel has increased, don't invite me for anything. the answer is an automatic NO.

especially if people tell me, "erh, sorry ah ming, can you please confirm if you are coming? like ASAP? coz we need to settle the transport issues...." or "we may not have enough cars la..." and there's always the "how many people can you fit in your car?"

you all suddenly so friendly! wah! ah, the warm rays of friendship! hahaha...

go fly kite la you all.

it's nice being alone sometimes. you don't have to fake a smile. YOU CAN FART IF YOU WANT TO. you don't have to come up with mundane conversation starters ("wah! nowadays arh! rain everyday sia!"), you don't have to spend too much money. YOU CAN WANK. you can play guitar till the dogs behind your house go into barking fits. you won't have people call you chubby. you can watch ALL the geeky documentaries in national geographic you want. you can avoid watching this dumb sport where 22 guys on a green field go kicking a ball (and each other). you may even study! you can lie on your bed and read til daybreak. you can play project gotham racing 4 and grand theft auto 4 and screw your GTA4 girlfriend till she bleeds.

it's okay. i'm not even angry. haha. really man. i'll still smile at you. i'll still say hi. but for whatever it's worth, don't count me in larh. i'm just to lazy. it's nice if you think of me once in a while, but hey (shrugs shoulders) i'm not begging. if anyone reads this and feels sorry for me, don't. don't let your egoes convince you that my happiness and my sense of fulfillment hinges upon so little. i'm just stating a fact. throw that flash of momentary guilt out of the window.

i was reading melvyn's blog. i know exactly how he feels, just that perhaps my humour gets to more people than his one does. maybe. but it's really alright to be alone. sure, friends are great. they help you along, you help them along, you laugh and tell jokes, but really, you don't need to be accepted by people or be close to them. look where it got me. i'm sitting here at home doing some personal reflection (albeit doing it online) thinking of what dinner i should get myself (hmm... instant me? char kuay teow? or roti telur bawang?)

anyway, to all those celebrating a birthday, or celebrating somebody else's birthday have a good one! i mean, sincerely, you have my well wishes however old you are, and whoever your friends may be. why not? i don't hate you. i just care less... i've got me myself and i, and life is just peachy!

Happy Birthday Mum!!!

2008-06-02T19:48:00.003+08:00

'twas my mum's birthday on sunday. she has ripened to a good old age of 51! haha... cool sia... but don't say i told you that larh.

i actually tried to con my cousin into messaging my mum to wish her 'happy sixtieth birthday' but it failed la. cousin didn't buy the message i sent her: "yeah, today's my mum's birthday. she turns sixty"

it was a great weekend. just chilling with my mum. we went to KLCC.

mum bought me clothes (she can't stand that i wear the same clothes all the time) and then books, and then dinner.

funny eh!? her birthday but she belanja me. haha...

anyway! oh, books and books! i got three!! the one i'm currently reading:

1. Eric Clapton: the biography

2. Shalimar The Clown - Salman Rushdie

3. Good Omens - Neil Gaiman and Terry Prachett.

did you know that as a kid, when clapton discovered his talent for drawing/art, his first subjects were pies?

he was obssessed with them. he would draw hundreds of pies, pies this, and pies that, and pies with the pie man, and pies on the pie cart and so forth....

funny sia.

cheerio guys! study hard.

F&N - Mum's Birthday Weekend

2008-05-30T02:24:00.003+08:00

ohno. my mum's birthday is on sunday! i've got absolutely no idea what to do. help!

anyway, here's another song i'd like to share with you.

there's something really sad about singing a sad song happily. well, not really happy-happy, but it sounds just cheerful and light. it's like smiling through tears, you know.

here's what this one says:

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

just minimise the browser and listen first. try not to get distracted by what you see.

Happy Ending - Mika

A Little Reflection Never Hurt Anybody (unless you're really THAT ugly)

2008-05-28T20:47:00.003+08:00

today after class i satay-ed (stayed) back to play basketball with the batch guys.

always good fun.

anyway, i spotted kelvin walking towards the LRT. "going home?" says i. "no" he replies, "going to church"

...

HARH!!!!

...

ohno, the four horsemen of apocalypse must be saddling up.

the next thing you know!! maybe he'll even study! hahaha... just joking. good on 'ya dude.
anyway.

since i'm in a good mood. there's a lot of things i thank the Big Guy In The Sky for.

thank You for family.
thank You for a girlfriend whom i love heaps.
thank You for friends.
thank You for Silverchair's diorama album.
thank You for diversity.
thank You for roti canai (telur bawang)
thank You for constant reminders of Your might. even if You may be just moving Your furniture.
thank You for beauty that manifests in so many ways. otherwise we'll all be ugly.

and life is always good after a shower.

Amen.

aaaarrrrrggghhhh....

2008-05-28T00:52:00.000+08:00

i screwed up again didn't i?

Beating Around The Bush Of Lalang

2008-05-16T02:06:00.003+08:00

i know, i know. this is late. my mum rocks. she gave me three things that are so ordinary in my life today, that i rarely notice them. often, i've taken them for granted. and what brought on this sudden wave of gratitude?? well, mother's day played a part, for sure, but so did my big mouth. haha...

let me explain.

have you all ever noticed that saying something makes what you feel or what you are more concrete?? i mean, i know all the cliches about how words are nothing more than beautifully expressed air, but there are times when words become cement. or sand. or all those iron rods (technically they are called iron rebars). or whatever that goes into concrete larh.

like how saying things like "oh, i study medicine", or "shit! my exams are in two month's time only!"

don't you take a step back (careful, don't fall) and think, "hey! damn straight dude! you (which is really me, or myself, and yours truly) are ABSOLUTELY RIGHT!!! time to crack the books!!"

only this time, i had a conversation with llama. and i said this (pardon the manglish), "eh, i quite like stephen king's books la"

so, it all started with this guy.

i was saying that his epic series, the dark tower trumps harry freaking potter hands down! yeah man! it does. hands down, pants down, and goose feather down.

and i realised. HEY! I DO LIKE STEPHEN KING!

so i went out and got three books of his. pet sematary, carrie and misery. my favourite one was pet semetary.

spooky as hell.

anyway... this brings me all the way back to my mother. as of late, i've rediscovered the passion for reading!

and that was one of the gifts that she gave to me. or rather she shared with me. my father reads as much as the bush of lalang growing in my garden. so, all the book-wormish-ness you see in me? all from mum. the other two? well, i guess one of them would have to be just being so nice and so cool and so approachable. being a mother, in other words. and the other?

the most selfless one of all. because she gave this to me while she herself couldn't have it. it was the gift of music. crazy right??? i don't think i can think of a day that i didn't go through without playing the guitar, or singing something out loud.

anyway, i've read all three stephen king books, and one more for good measure, which was Cell.

and imagine my joy when i sat beside mervin today (i mean, not the sitting part, wait till the end of the sentence!) and i saw this book! i remember wanting to read it ever since... ever since forever larh! and he very obligingly allowed me to borrow it. YES!!!

this book is the god of small things

P.S. heh! the god of small things. anthony, your cock worships this book. hahahahaha....

(sorry guys, couldn't resist)

AAARGH! RETROGRADE BLOG SURVEY TAGGING!!!!

2008-05-14T23:44:00.003+08:00

debbie, oh, debbie, you little devil you. haha. okay okay. i'm going to do things differently, since she tagged me again. i'm going to give you updates on how i've been in the answers of the questions. (i know you didn't ask to be updated about poor 'ol me) but oh, well, here goes.

The Rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. Comment on it.
5. Tag 5 people. [i think i'll just ignore this... hahaha. i scared already. hahahaa]

1) How are you feeling today?
sink beneath the line - incubus
well my sink leaked today! (i mean it does that usually anyway, but it happend today too what...)

2) Will you get far in life?
fitter happier - radiohead
argh, i've been slacking the whole time. not one bit of exercise! IMU has been making walk up and down some stupid hill to get to my car though. garh! damn unfit....! at least tomorrow i'm playing volleyball. started itching for it...

3) What's your best friend's theme song?
uninvited - alanis morissette
ahaha... the fit gang (jimmy ng, jank, kim and now joony and llama) all went for gym sessions... AND THEY DIDN'T INVITE ME! (phewh!)

4) What is the story of your life?
meaningless conversation - jack johnson
ah, the crowd favourite again! ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING, OH HOLY IPOD??

5) What was high school like?
under pressure - queen
i'll tell you all why:
1. ASEAN scholarship. gah. will get terminated if i don't perform well enough
2. my class was full of smartasses from dunman, but i hung out with the slacker gang. (no change here!)
3. VJC choir. tri-weekly sessions (I MISS THEM LIKE MAD)
4. girlfriend. haha. love her to bits, but you know... IT TAKES EFFORT WHAT...
5. NAPFA fitness tests. gosh. how they seem so far away!
6. oh, lastly, exams. haha.

6) How can you get ahead with life?
Jesus of suburbia / city of the damned / i don't care / dearly beloved / tales of another broken home - greenday
hmm...maybe by stringing all bits and pieces of stuff together??? like this song? make sure they are in key first though.

7) What's the best thing about your friends?
if you have to ask - red hot chilli peppers
if you have to ask, they aren't your friends... (whoah, minghui, why suddenly got smarty-arsed comments like these wan???)

8) Describe yourgrandparents.
hollywood bitch - stone temple pilots
erh... i can't really think of anything. just a feeling of disbelief. HOW CAN THE IPOD TELL ME SOMETHING STUPID LIKE THIS!?? WHY CAN'T YOU BE LIKE TELEVISION!? THE TELEVISION NEVER LIES TO ME!! NEVER!!! i feel the real world slipping away... song... after song... until the battery dies...

9) How's your life going?
turn it again - red hot chilli peppers
it went well! haha... well, imu made us go and park our cars up at the top of some hill. there are loose stones, sand and dust everywhere on the 'parking lot' in place of a proper tarred surface. can drift there for you. come with me, i'll turn it again.

10) What will be played at my funeral?
boulevard of broken dreams - greenday
how come i still have this song on my ipod wan??

11) Will you have a happy life?
in the morning - norah jones
HOW can i have a good life if the ipod tells me this, and i simply cannot wake up in the morning? preferably my 'morning' is past noon and my bedtime is four a.m.

12) What do your friends really think of you?
stockholm syndrome - muse
YOU LIE TO ME AGAIN, OH IPOD. WHY!!!??? i loved you... i loved you so... i curl your earphones up so neatly... i bought you a soft padded pouch... i bring offerings of music... i will 'musically' kill myself, now that my belief has been SHATTERED!!! (now, to make good on my suicide promise, will someone lend me a punk CD? simple plan anyone? rihanna will do the job quicker, but i want a less painful death)

13) Do people secretly lust after you?
uno - muse
oh, i know alright... =)

14) How can you make yourself happy?
tiny little fractures - snow patrol
maybe there will be if jeremy cheah starts spiking balls at me.

15) Will you ever have children?
if you don't, don't - jimmy eat world
haha! smart, smart!!! my faith in you, oh ipod, is restored.

16) What song would you strip to?
love of my life - queen
it's such a sad song... =( maybe i have to get my audience ready for the 'show' by first lowering their expectations. haha...

17) What does your mom think of you?
fortune faded - red hot chilli peppers
hah! in your face!!! you optimists about me being a doctor are WRONG!!! hahaha... turns out i'm just wasting my parents' fortune. (gulp!)

18) What is your deep,dark secret?
map of the problematique - muse
yep! spot on. (screw you ipod. i hate you.)

19) What is your enemy's theme song?
war within a breath - rage against the machine
sorry to disappoint you guys, but i've not made any enemies the past week or two.

20) What's your personality like?
right on time - red hot chilli peppers
heh! of course!!!! am i ever late for anything??? haha.
was late for clinical sessions yesterday, late for lectures on monday, late for lab sessions today.

21) What will be played at your wedding?
papercut - linkin park
oh man... hope the missus dun read this, mr ipod, otherwise you're just a bunch of crushed silicone wafer....

Kena Again

2008-05-05T02:12:00.003+08:00

oh well, i got tagged again. haha... this time by joon heng. you know, whenever i see a survey/questionaire on somebody's blog, i scroll down, and see if i got tagged. coz i if was, then i would just highlight and copy and read as little of the completed survey as possible. weird? purist? whatever.

anyway, i've done this survey before, i think, but i've got new songs in my player, and it always shuffles differently, so here goes!

The Rules:

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
4. Comment on it.
5. Tag 5 people.

1) How are you feeling today?
beautiful day - u2
whoa. quite funny this. was it a beautiful day?? well, we just got back from seremban where we played at battle of the bands, the preliminary round, and we got knocked out, but we had loads of fun. nevermind the stupid Mat Rockers/Metal there la. so yeah.

2) Will you get far in life?
throw away your television - red hot chilli peppers
okay, one of the weird ones. well, if you wanna get a little analytical, it says that we should try new things. so, as to getting far in life? 'the fuck i know man?

3) What's your best friend's theme song?
my sundown - jimmy eat world
hah! really?

4) What is the story of your life?
when love comes to town - u2 and bb king
ooh! i like this song!
"maybe i was wrong to ever let you down
but i did what i did, before looovvveee came to town"

5) What was high school like?
isreal's son - silverchair
aiyah, a little disappointed.

6) How can you get ahead with life?
ride the river - eric clapton
i haven't heard this song before actually. haha... hope they aren't asking me to go and ride the teh tarik klang or gombak river.

7) What's the best thing about your friends?
savin' me - nickelback
don't save me! save my future patients!

8) Describe your grandparents.
plush (acoustic) - stone temple pilots
well well. what do we have here? weirdness. we all see what we wanna see, and thus make seemingly random things appear to supporting or destroying our opinions.

9) How's your life going?
whatever's left - snow patrol
ahh.... the all rarely-listened to songs are surfacing! what they are trying to say?

10) What will be played at my funeral?
shoot the moon - norah jones
by then maybe i will be able to piss on the moon la.

11) Will you have a happy life?
beware criminal - incubus
haha! sure sure. that's just like telling you to watch out for drunken driving maniacs. simply can't be done man. they're everywhere.

12) What do your friends really think of you?
used to love you - john legend
ah! i did have that nagging suspicion they were all faking it. hahaha...

13) Do people secretly lust after you?
no association - silverchair
hahahahaha!!! cool! they don't associate me with getting hot 'n horny over me? to quote james bond on casino royale:
vesper: even if your little finger was all that was left of you, i'd still love you.
bond: ah, but that is because you know what i can do with my little finger.

14) How can you make yourself happy?
talk show on mute - incubus
hmm... talk less i guess. i should save my smart-ass comments for my own personal listening.

15) Will you ever have children?
cigaro - system of a down
"sorry mum, sorry dad... your grandchildren...CIGARO, CIGARO, CIGARO!!!!"

16) What song would you strip to?
the door - silverchair
ugh, you sure??? alamak, this is such a dumb song to strip to larh!

17) What does your mom think of you?
pda (we just don't care) - john legend
really mum? i swear, we don't pda here and there la.... WE ARE PART OF A RESERVED AND CONSERVATIVE ASIAN SOCIETY! (smell the sarcasm??)

18) What is your deep, dark secret?
square one - coldplay
my deep and dark secret is a square one?? hahaha....

19) What is your enemy's theme song?
leave me out - silverchair
funny larh these people. leave me outside your door? or out of my life???

20) What's your personality like?
meaningless conversation - jack johnson
oyeaaaaaaa......!!!!! how apt. my friends would all know this. haha...

21) What will be played at your wedding?
like a tattoo - sade
someone explain this please. i'm gonna sleep soon already.

i tag!!!! aaronghiwaierufah, chong bing, danis, debbie, and cheehau!!!

F&N - Labour Day Week

2008-05-01T15:10:00.002+08:00

hey hey! it's been a long time since i've been doing this right? well, here's a new one.

this week's Friday Night Noise song is:

Come Together by Aerosmith

it was originally done by the beatles, but this cover rocks man.

this song just drips of attitude...haha...

help me. i'm dying here. garh.

The Few Pleasures of Life

2008-04-27T16:18:00.003+08:00

there really are few things like the first shower after you have your untidy head of grass-like hair trimmed.

you drive home all prickly all over, and when you take that shower, there's something oddly satisfying about watching all those 'lil bits of hair get caught up in the lather of the shampoo, then flow helplessly down the draincover.

feel refreshed. then, of course, it is time for bananas.

HAHAHAHA....

2008-04-26T01:00:00.002+08:00

Spiders On Drugs

and

The Joker as a Baby

that's what happens when you have too much free time on your hands.

Basket....

2008-04-24T17:32:00.002+08:00

yay! joon just asked me to go shoot some hoops! =) ah, great stuff. i love you joon heng!

WhyTheHellMustIPutATtitleHere!?WhatIsWrongWithYouIdiots???!!!

2008-04-22T02:00:00.003+08:00

got my baby:

got my music:

life is just peachy!

Blah....

2008-04-20T15:21:00.004+08:00

oh goodness...

my life is in turmoil right now. garrrh!

having fun, being tired, singing, partying, drinking... sleeping over.

it's all great, but sometimes...

fucking sick of it.

what i've done the past week.

i went to kota bahru to visit my brother.

drove a manual car there (with great difficulty) dammit!

ate funky illegally poached food there.

came back to the IMU ball after party.

some friends are really great.

some, i really don't know.

maybe when i stop joking around you will see me as i really am.

came in third for IMU idol.

feel quite good about it.

i like putting up a performance.

feels extremely comfortable being up on stage.

our time to shine.

Another One????

2008-04-03T01:47:00.001+08:00

you gotta be kidding me man... how can i actually be doing this to myself? maybe it's because i have to do research and present for PBL tomorrow. or maybe it's the fact that i'm quite psyched about nothing at all. but anyway, i bumped into this at shiyuan's blog. and i'll just fill out this survey. just for kicks.

[One] Who was your last text from?
lipjeen

[Two] Where was your default picture taken at?
oh, that! that was at the jamming studio at endah parade/carrefour. i was playing the studio's bass and singing something. can't remember what.

[Three] What's your middle name?
damn la. forgot. wait, i go back check my notes. i tell you tomorrow okay.

[Four] Your current relationship status?
attached but apart. haha. as in i'm at my home and she is at hers la.

[Five] Does your crush(s) like you back?
i hope so...

[Six] What is your current mood?
hungry. hahaha...nolarh, me? just like that larh. i have PBL research to do. and i'm not doing it!!! so how do you think i feel??? pretty good, actually.

[Seven] What's your mom's name?
i dunno. i just call her Mum.

[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?
why wear a shirt when you're at home and you can do anything??? (haha, lipjeen does this frighten you??)

[Nine] What was the last thing you drank?
ugh! my father's herbal remedy-thingy. eeeyarh! damn bitter. uncompromisingly bitter. from the first drop till the aftertaste. but quite nice la.

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
would i now?? i guess i would.

[Eleven] Have a crazy side?
doesn't everyone??

[Twelve] Ever had a near death experience?
does getting caught by the principal for drinking in the hostel count??

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
without a doubt, breathe and pump blood and fire off nervous impulses, twitch certain muscle fibres, digest, excrete, absorb, secrete, synthesise, breakdown, meiosis, mitosis, apoptosis and...erh... i talk alot.

[Fourteen] Angry at anyone?
nope. at you larh

[Fifteen] Do you wanna see somebody right now?
oh yes i do! haha!

[Sixteen] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
there's this guy called stevanov whom i met when i was in the upper secondary years. indonesian guy, one year older, but we called him ninja turtle coz he had a very round head.

[Seventeen] When was the last time you cried?
grandmother's eulogy. it wasn't so much the sadness, it was talking about how i'll miss her. wah lau. that got the taps going.

[Eighteen] Who would you do anything for?
my mum. but please Mum, don't take me shopping.

[Nineteen] Who is your idol?
i dunno la. gosh.

[Twenty] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite gender?
everything larh. you tell me there's a guy who doesn't do a quick up-and-down whenever they meet a girl??? come to think about it, don't we do that to everyone?

[Twenty-one] What do you usually order from starbucks?
latte. the best drink there is. fraps are chick drinks.

[Twenty-two] What's your biggest secret?
i'm actually elvis.

[Twenty-three] Favorite movie?
gosh. hard to say. i don't really remember... i suppose it has to be the lord of the rings larh. but it's a trilogy, so i don't think they can be counted. ah hell! one of their movies is so long, each should be counted as two movies!

[Twenty-four] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
only when i get the chance! dammit! i'm to ashamed to ask my dad to subscribe to cartoons. but i absolutely like spongebob squarepants!

[Twenty-five] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
nothing. sources say i've eaten and drank enough already.

[Twenty-six] Do you speak any other language?
swahili.

[Twenty-seven] What's your favorite smell?
ooh cool! another one of those questions that will end up making me look like some pervert with weird fetishes! anyway, i like the dove shower gel. the green one. and head and shoulders menthol. =)

[Twenty-eight] Describe your life in two words, what would it be?
just fine

[Twenty-nine] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
what the... you mean this guy??

[Thirty] Do you like the rain?
hey man, you're freaking me out. what are you? the president of the rain fanclub??

[Thirty-one] What are you thinking about right now?
maybe i should start PBL....

Oh Gosh, Damn Stupid La...

2008-04-03T00:52:00.002+08:00

hahaha... for all those of you who don't know that the intestines can be like so-and-so long, and you think your body is one straight passage, here, watch this!

How to Untangle Mp3 Headphones

if you're in med school and you think this is a great idea, you should:

1.) quit med school, you dumbass
2.) report yourself to the SPCA
3.) get new earphones!!! there are new bluetooth ones that don't have cats. oops, sorry, i mean cords.

anyway, i was looking at nirvana's live performance of smells like teen spirit, and i stumbled upon their first live performance of the said song (or so claimed the title). dammit man!!! kurt cobain is such a freaking rockstar! before they start (if you can ignore the jumping bassist) kurt mumbles,

"don't really know if you, these people in this room know...

that courtney love...

the lead singer of the sensational pop group Hole...

is the best fuck in the world"

i mean, wah lau! how can you be any more rockstar than that???

Kena Tag Again

2008-03-27T19:18:00.003+08:00

got it from meisze.

Instructions: Remove one question from below, add in one of your own(personal), to make a total of 20. Tag 10 people in your list in the end of this post. Notify them.

1. At what age do you wish to be married?
at the right marrying age! anytime between now and then.

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you'd take and why?
what am i doing on that island?? i would bring a carlsberg, a guinness and a heineken.

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
oh gosh. the #1 position on the billboard modern rock list.

4. If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?
to not wake up from that dream.

5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
heh!! can you survive without clothes my friend??

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
my 'device'

7. If you win $ 1 Million, what would you do?
retire! and then try and win another million.

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
unless she was scarlet johansson or charlize theron or... or a guy la.

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
she's my cousin, she likes pets, and... erh... she smacks people really hard.

10. What requirement you wish from your other half?
oh, love me love me love me...

11. What kind of person you hate the most?
??? what???

12. If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
nope. you ever heard of the butterfly effect?? fattening sia... if it was The Margarine Effect then not too bad la. but butter has unsaturrated fatty acids larh... so....

13. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. What does it mean to you?
that means you hair will always be fizzy and rough. and you'll love it.

14. (ming hui's question) if you had a pet orang utan, what would you call him? and why?
anthony! and the reason is obvious.

15. If there's ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place, or fight?
move la. wahlau. the meek will inherit earth. duh!!

16. If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
oh gosh!!! i wanna be talented! i so so so wish i could be like matt bellamy or whoever la. oh, someone! give me your talents.

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
the (cute) missus.

18. What's your weakest point?
what is every guy's weakest point???

19. What's the thing that you're most proud of?
see number 17.

20. What is the one thing you regret most?
there's nothing to fear but fear itself. so, therefore, have no regrets.

oh, how many do i have to tag again? ALAMAK! ten??? ohgosh. lemme see...
chong bing
danis
joon heng
debbie (only if you're not too busy okay)
shi yuan
qadir
ET (only if you're not too busy too)
and...

hell larh!!! i dun have that many active blogging ppl larh. screw it larh.

bye.

F&N - Roti Tisu #1

2008-03-22T05:14:00.004+08:00

today, jankee came back to KL. or rather, subang, specifically. so me, him and joon went to asia cafe (where else) for a bit of pool. but bloody hell! we had this roti tissue at taipan before that. it was sweet, huge, brittle, and oh-so IRRITATING to eat. but it was good larh.

then we sent jankee to his vista apartments. he's got new housemates! debbie should be proud to know that it took two girls to take her place. hahaha... of course, they have less things than debbie has combined... haha. (the place was very neat....)

jan turned the computer on (wahlau...you horny bugger, i didn't mean it like that larh...) and joon logged onto his MSN. then me and jan started randomly talking to people. me? my target was danis. haha. he got a IM-chatbox-ful of "PENISSSSSS"s and all that.

the funniest thing, the didn't believe joon when joon reclaimed the hijacked conversation and told danis that it was actually me. well, come to think about it, the first message i sent danis via joon was "i'mgay". maybe danis can't let go of the hope. hahahahhaa...

anyway, today's Friday Night Noise is:

Sick Sad Little World by Incubus

lyrics and tabs here.

they did this song at fort canning. amazing. this vid is taken off their Look Alive dvd (which is awesome)

tahz. meeting the missus tomorrow. can't wait! haha.

P.S. danis, it was me. haha.

Of Shakespear and What Nots....

2008-03-18T18:33:00.004+08:00

for those of you who know me, it doesn't come as a surprise if i tell you that i have absolutely no poetic bones in me. i can neither appreciate good poetry, discern between the profound and mere simply rhyming, and i cannot write poetry.

but a few years ago i was struck by a piece written by neil gaiman. i felt the sadness, the acceptance and more funny things. how can this happen??? it was just words rearranged in some particular order, but i so very nearly shed a tear.

you see, my brother got this book of his short stories and poems for my birthday. i largely ignored the poems and read through them perfunctionarily. but anyway, in his rather extensive introduction. he wrote a little of every entry. of "Locks", he wrote thus:

"Goldilocks and the Three Bears" was a story by the poet Robert Southey. Or rather, it wasn't - his version told of an old woman and three bears. Ther form of the story and what happened was right, but people knew that the story needed to be about a little girl rather than an old woman, and when they retold it, they put her in.

Of course, fairy tales are transmissible. You can catch them, or be infected by them. They are the currency that we share withthose who walked the world before ever we were here. (Telling stories to my children that I was, in my turn, told by my parents and grandparents makes me feel part of something special and odd, part of the continuous stream of life itself.) My daughter Maddy, who was two when I wrote this for her, is eleven, and we still share stories, but they are now on television or films. We read the same books and talk about them, but I no longer read them to her, and even that was a poor replacement for telling her stories out of my head.

I believe we owe it to each other to tell stories. It's as close to a credo as i have, or will, I suspect, ever get.

so, armed with a brief description. read the poem "Locks" and tell me what you think.

Over to Mum's Place

2008-03-16T15:10:00.002+08:00

i have chee cheong fun waiting for me...mmm~~~

oh, that, and my family, of course.

F&N - Mid-March

2008-03-15T04:22:00.002+08:00

so, finally, after abandoning Friday Night Noise for a long time. this week's pick is...

Citizen Erased - Muse

live at RockAmRing 2004, on youtube

he plays a seven-string guitar in this vid, by the way. if you freeze the vid at 2.20 and count the tuning machines on the headstock. there it is! anyway. enjoy.

here are the lyrics, if you can sing a long. hahaha...

Citizen Erased - Muse

break me in, teach us to cheat

and to lie, cover up

what shouldn't be shared?

all the truth's

unwinding scraping away

at my mind please stop asking me to describe

for one moment

i wish you'd hold your stage

with no feelings at all

open-minded

i'm sure i used to be so free

self-expressed,

exhausting for all

to see and to be

what you want and what you need

the truth's

unwinding scraping away

at my mind please stop asking me to describe

wash me away

clean your body of me

erase all the memories

they will only bring us pain

and i've seen, all i'll ever need

Blogging Again!!

2008-03-15T02:58:00.004+08:00

so, what happened eh? well, i passed my exams, and i'm damn thankful for it. seriously man. even after all the slacking, all the 'jalan-jalan'-ing... i still managed to pass. BUT! i shall not be complacent. shall try to study harder next time. anyway.

after exams, me, chong bing and anthony went to genting for 1 night. it was fun! but the next night! i tell you. the next night, we somehow managed to get free drinks at Maison's. crazy larh. drank like no tomorrow. i passed out and woke up in anthony's bed covered in puke. garh. never again man.

can't even bear the thought of drinkin whisky. beer's fine though. (more than fine actually)

then, i went down to singapore to celebrate weilin's birthday. i overstayed my welcome and had to shift out to Kent Ridge Hall for a night before we watched the Incubus concert. here are! SOME! PICTURES!!!

the IMU gang

eh, check this out! we were swinging sparkle through the air in the shape of letters. long exposure means that we'll etch the tract of light in the image. you know, similar to those nighttime traffic shots where cars leave trails of light in their wake.

AND NOW!!! ANOTHER DUMB LLAMA SHOT!!!

(i mean llama picture, not llama that got shot)

and then incubus! but before that, i managed to meet up with old friends! shi yuan, qadir, yee kiat, teik zhen, hokito, shaun teh, moses and de-bra (deborah goh). nice seeing them again! kent ridge hall has damn small rooms. somehow teikteik managed to squeeze a fridge inside la. go figure. and here was... the concert!

the opening act, Saosin, was good! seriously man. their name is a distortion of a Chinese phrase. go wiki it if you're free larh. incubus was good, as expected, but i was a little disappointed that the singer couldn't hit the high Bs, and ben was disappointed that they didn't play their more popular hits. haha. to quote him "oh Brandon, you pleased your female fans by taking your shirt off, but you didn't please us!"

cheerio.

somewhere over seri kembangan, a storm is brewing. and its flying my way.

Survey

2008-02-28T00:30:00.003+08:00

so i have been surfing blogs, and shi yuan tagged me. so here it goes! another way to find out random things about me.

1. Where is your cell phone?
beside the computer.

2. Your girlfriend/boyfriend?
at home. talking to me via MSN. by the way, girlfriend arh.

3. Your hair?
as usual la. all over the place. feels like grass.

4. Where is your father?
in his room, minding his own business. as am i, come to think of it

5. Your favorite thing to do?.
i put my itunes on shuffle, and then i try and play along on my guitar.

6. Your dream last night?
you.

7. Your favorite drink?
whoah. has to be a heiniken la.

8. Your dream car?
gosh, i don't know. attainable dream car? performance dream car? sensible dream car? budget dream car? whatever la.

9The room you’re in?
has my computer, my guitars my amps, my books, my CDs.

10. Your fears?
i dun wanna get drunk again.

11. Who did you hang out with yesterday?
chongbing anthony

12. What aren’t you good at?
being good at stuff.

13. Muffins?
kenny rogers!

14. One of your wish list items?
hmm...guitar hero 3 console for the xbox360

15. The last thing you did?
press the Down cursor button to bring the 'lil blinking 'type-here'-line to the question

16. What are you wearing?
clothes, i think. i pity those ppl in the perfume industry. all they ever say is "oooh, i'm wearing so-and-so perfume, and it is marvelous deary" seems like they are all naked.

17. Your pet?
i've got a mouse!

18. Your computer?
well, actually, it's his mouse la.

19. Your life?
is still the same. except when it changes.

20. Your mood?
hovering between occasional elation and numbness.

21. Missing?
terrorists. my guns didn't have crosshairs last nite (i blame the computer) so i missed all those terrorists on counter-strike

22. What are you thinking about right now?
you.

23. Your car?
is on it's way to more repairs

24. Your work?
will be tough. but rewarding. (i hope, coz that's all there is to it sometimes)

25. Your summer?
NA.

26. Your relationship status?
she is scary. hahaha... (in the most wonderful way)

27. Your favorite color(s)?
white. i like simple stuff.

28. When is the last time you laughed?
today, out with lipjeen.

29. Last time you cried?
delivering eulogy for my grandmother. cried like a waterfall.

30. School?
long gone are those good times. uni is a pain in the butt. especially when they teach us rectal examinations.

Bo-Rat

2008-02-06T02:55:00.000+08:00

say hello to the new year guys! well, the cheena guys only larh.

oh gosh. exams are coming. die die die die. DIEEEEEE....

i just can't keep focused.

i hereby vow to not:
turn on the computer
strum my guitars
down any beers
play video games (or hearts)
write anything on blogger
or facebook
watch more that an hour of TV daily
sleep in past 12
slack
write songs
think up stupid poetry
think of ways to tidy up my bare, spartan room
run more that 2.0km at any given time, lest i get too bushed to study
eat out at expensive restaurants

until my exams are over.

it sounds like i can't make it already.

anyway, i've deviced a new way to study! i use my calculator to churn up random numbers between 0-47, and then i will play the CD that is at that slot in my CD pouch. i'm gonna try to finish all 48 of them before exams come. ambitious eh??

gosh, i haven't listened to some in a long time. like can you believe it? there's limp bizkit even! (two of their CDs actually)

so long and fare you all well. see you all again after next week. or sooner, if i tak tahan already. haha. so much for self-discipline.

PS: to sweeleen. haha, yeah. we all know what is going on. even if we seem not to care, or not to discuss it, we are not inert. we listen, and think. personally, i find it just so blearghz to talk about. i mean, politics is like a real wet blanket you know. dripping with ice cold water. you can never feel good about your this country if you give it serious thought.

to shiyuan. oi! yea yea, i know! i see pictures of myself and cringe la. i'm gonna rectify that soon enough. haha. do the 14YOs offer themselves on the great altar of shiyuan for him to dance his diploma-level fingers across them? haha. tell me, man, i dunno what they're thinking. sometimes i think i never will know. haha.

to everyone. happy chinese new year! gong xi ni. and other chinese gibberish lar.

Hello

2008-02-02T04:23:00.000+08:00

i'm just bored. i'm awake at 4 am. die la tomorrow.

stomach giving me a hard time. i dunno what is wrong. so much for studying eh?

tah!

F&N - Federal Territory Day

2008-02-01T01:13:00.000+08:00

hi! it's friday again, and time for another round of Friday Night Noise!

today, it's yet another silverchair song. haha, i'm sorry, i just bought one of their CDs, and it's very good. so here it is.

you can nag me for lack of imagination next time. haha.

World Upon Your Shoulders - Silverchair

We've Been Too Tolerant...

2008-01-30T23:52:00.000+08:00

dear reader. have you ever picked up an issue of the newspaper, and then you flip through the national news? doubtless, you have, but of late, i have told myself to stop. what's the point? all i feel is cynical. of everything. every God-forsaken headline that screams at me. i even get cynical about headlines that i don't see.

you see, i live in this country, let's call it "Malaise-siao!". oh that's right, with the exclamation mark. i am now 21, and i'm an adult. not because it says so on my passport, not because i'm as old as i am, and certainly not because i've grown taller. as far as Malaise-siao! is concerned, (and they should be) i'm an adult because this year, what i think counts, and what i think can and will in it's own small way, change destiny.

Malaise-siao! has a big army, and they have a lotta generals, so once every four years, after seizing all those pornographic dvds, all the generals watch them together and Malaise-siao! has what i call the General Erections.

then, we the people, the decide. since the dawn of time, we Malaise-siao!-ans have selected a bunch of numbskulls, at the Erections to measure them but mostly, ('coz they use rulers) to rule after the Erections have all become flacid. indeed, in some tongues, the name that they call themselves also can be translated literally as 'ruler'.

anyway, lets call them Garisan Rational.

i'm tired of skepticism. i'm disillusioned. i no longer believe your phony lies about how well we are doing. or how fucking integrated we are.

i have no tolerance for your religion when you enforce it onto other people.

i'm sick of looking at Garisan Rational's foot soldiers rise to become commanders and start waving knives, and recite lines that make people feel that other races are lesser.

i don't wanna be a persona non grata in my own country.

i don't wanna get grenaded.

i hate the fact that in Malaise-siao! only those who you declare your own enjoy privileges. aren't you an immigrant too?

i don't wanna have my son worship another religion and suddenly i'm forced to donate all my organs, posthumously to a cemetery of a religion i didn't believe in.

so, dear readers, when the time comes, when i see all the Erections and i see this bunch of losers. they are slow, corrupt (up to a point that i could bribe them to measure a eunuch as a winner) and sell fish. the time will come when i as a Malaise-siao!-an, will put my view on a piece of paper, and join millions of others in saying, "YOU! you are not doing your job properly! you do no measure, you do not rule properly."

you only rule the dicks you want to suck and milk for your own pleasure. i have watched in disgust for a long time now. the veil over my eyes has fallen.

i know who i will be casting my vote for.

There Are Monsters Among Us

2008-01-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

oh, by the way, ET was back in town and we went to visit ngeezheng at kajang for sate. haha. it was goooood!

anw, dear JC friends. remember the good ole days? we were all wholesome, clean, and full of hope and aspirations?

WHAT HAPPENED???

F&N - Thaipusam Week

2008-01-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

okay. i figure that since a big chunk of my life is music. and this blog is (or should be) a reflection of the writer/blogger/me. it's an image of me seen off the surface of a lake on a windy day, and though distorted and incomplete, it is a reflection nonetheless.

okay. enough justifying what i do with my own space.

i'm starting this thing called F&N, or Friday Night Noise and this is the first entre! whatever song i feel like telling you about i'll tell you on the friday so you have a prescription of noise for your friday nights. it's up to you to swallow it, or ignore it. (that means click the link or let the infection of bad music fester).

haha. let's not be condescending here. you don't listen to bad music, it's just that i think you should give the F&N song a try.

without further rambling! today's F&N is -

Without You by Silverchair off their album Diorama

i especially like the lines:

"old incissions, refusing to say.

like sun through the trees on a cloudy day."

enjoy! =)

Relaxing Times... NOT!!

2008-01-15T19:01:00.000+08:00

okay okay. i gotta study.

i played golf over the weekend at the driving range. garh. it was quite bad larh. i managed to blister myself. the shots were okay, but blisters automatically relegate it to not-so-good.

anyway, yesterday seng chye and kelvin came over to my subang place to play some Explosive Diarrhoea songs. that's our acoustic band! whoo! watch out for out debut guys.

btw, videos of our Friday Night performance are on facebook. haha, i didn't realise.

i got trashed by kelvin at pool at asia cafe. if you wanna beat him play 'i got it from my mama' on the PA and feed him beers.

check out my pick collection:

(tortex: the wedge, by jim dunlop. clockwise from top: yellow 0.72mm,

green 0.88mm, blue 1.0 mm, purple 1.14mm, red 0.50mm, orange 0.60mm)

cute eh? PCD (pry it from my cold dead fingers).

gotta study, but what's studies without distractions? check this out:

Do Not Laugh High School

bye gang.

New Year (among other things)

2008-01-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

so hi! i'm back. after a long, long time of disappearing under the radar. i'm back to doing stuff on facebook, f*cking facebook. playing poker there, and losing all my chips promptly. haha.

so! where have been! well, let me get it all down in chronological order!

after the exams, i had Friday Night, the uni's talent night of sorts. i performed in two bands, the first we did Tell Me Baby by the fantastic RHCP and then Bright Lights by Matchbox 20 with me on piano! haha. the audience and bandmembers were lucky i didn't stumble.

the next band we did Little of Your Time by that horny Maroon 5 (uegh, don't remind me of that song. haha. it is quite a nice song, but damn horrid lyrics larh.) Bittersweet Symphony, a piece of timeless music, and She Says, by Howie Day.

and then i had a five day trip to hongkong and china. it was great, except the stupid tour company kept on bringing us to 'museums' which just turns out to be factories with a little bit of display, and lots of sales counters.

(from left: myself, Dad, and Ming Wai, at Splendor of China, a miniature park)

and then when i got back, it was nearly Christmas, and as usual, there are things to be done. some of the things were unnecessary, but it made Christmas a little more special, probably with the elevated risk of food poisoning. isn't that right dear? haha.

oh, and by the way, my brother and i got ourselves Christmas presents in the form of an Xbox 360! it's plenty of fun. i'm currently going through Bioshock. i've finished halo3, and call of duty 4. and my brother completed Portal! oh gosh, what an amazing game. go and try it for yourself. if not for the thrill of it, then just for the humour.

new years for me was spending time with my mum at home watching a DVD. oklarh. it was quite fun.

a week later i had to go to this orang asli hospital deep into the rural areas to do some attachments. grh, it was sapping. everyday i had to get there at 8.30am, clerk patients' history and then go back. luckily it was only for three days. well, life goes on.

however, this visit opened my eyes to the suffering of the aborigines in malaysia. they earn literally no money at all and they have very, very bad healthcare. no one in the general malaysian populace gave a shit (i didn't). the kids play around barefooted, naked, and sitting in ditches, playing in rivers infected with parasites.

the resident doctor told us that on one of his trips into the jungle, via plane, helicopter, sampan, or 4x4, he saw this boy vomit out a metre long worm. A METRE! holy mother-o-***....

anyway, lets end of a lighter note. (okaaaay, this isn't so uplifting, but...) i have exams coming up again. garh. so that means every time i go out, i'm carry a little bit of paranoia around with me.

oh Lord, please help me pass...

Picky

2007-11-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

aihz! i just got back from yee wei's dinner at madam kwan's at MV. phewh. so tired. i had PBL1 with dr htin aung (donald) after lunch, and then me, lipjeen and sengchye (llama) went earlier to midvalley to get yeewei a present.

after all, turning 21 mustn't just flyby without at least some ceremony right?? anyway! lipjeen got me a pick! so cute! hahaha... love it! it feels great!

on saturday afternoon, i managed to catch Chicago the musical. lovely stuff man! it was really, really, really good! if i could somehow share it with everyone, with a snap of the fingers or jingle of the wrist, i would.

anyway, in the courthouse, this lawyer advises his client: (all in song, of course)

"throw 'em a fake and a finagle
they'll never know you're just a bagel"

one of the many funny things said.

anyway! tahz~

SHOCKING!!!

2007-11-10T03:39:00.000+08:00

i was browsing the news online recently, and i discovered something so shocking!!!

somewhere in the US (i think) there are machines that are created specially for the process of deflowering!!! can you believe it! they reasoned that machines were more reliable, especially if it was to be done at speed, and hence reduce the trauma to the deflowered.

here's the news article. hold on to your lunches.

Shoo

2007-11-09T20:36:00.000+08:00

ahhah! and so the duck bought new shoes! finally! coz i ditched the last pair at the foot of the mountain two weeks (or was it three weeks) ago. i just took them off and put my slippers on. didn't bother to take them and dispose them properly. littering, so sue me. i couldn't care less at that point of time. i just wanted to get back to KL.

anyway, here it is!
i bought it at the midvalley gardens, and i got a 30% discount using jeremy er's pacesetters card. so cool! the funny thing is, the card had a picture! maybe i look like jeremy er (ohno!!!)...

haven't tried it out yet. i wanted to today, but i'm at my mum's place and i forgot to bring along my contact lenses, i can't run with my glasses, and running without them will give me a nasty case of headaches. not bad for a list of excuses eh??

so anyway, i think i'll stop here. go on, run along now, little kids.

by the way, i just caught the movie jumanji on astro the other day. ah, one of my favourite movies when i was a kid. i watched it at least three times a week, seeing as i had a video tape of it. not bad! funny seeing it again, but i still enjoyed it.

will click 'publish post' now. tahz!

Faceboob

2007-11-07T22:31:00.000+08:00

so finally, i've started to grow my list of friends on faceboob. i've got a hundred or so by now. anyway, i was on a rampage, i addded lotsa old friends from choir, and even a teacher i knew back in SJI singapore, and of the people in the students' affairs department in IMU.

i think the only thing, the only real thing that things like friendster or facebook or multiply will be for, is for inviting all my long lost friends to my wedding next time. as in seriously larh. what else is there? people keep throwing fish or something of the other at me. anyway. here's a funny thing, if you have the time.

the fish dance

Yo!

2007-11-06T19:01:00.000+08:00

ahha! so my birthday was over! and whoohoo! what a birthday it was! i love birthdays. i don't really think it's a big deal, but boy, do i love them. it's the only time people give you something just for managing to stay alive another year! what's the sense in that man? it's like giving and anniversary present (which i have done too) with a little note: "here's to celebrate the two of us not breaking up" (but without this, of course).

anyway, i've got so many people to thank.

first of all, family, my mum, brother and dad. wonderful people.

lipjeen. celebratecd four birthdays of mine with me already. grape girl. did i say grape? i meant 'great'. haha.

to lipjeen's family too! we had a really, really great dinner at el cerdo the other day. i spotted my covetted lancer gsr outside too! smashing car. nonono. i take that back. it's not a car for smashing.

the people who organised the surprise party at LT2. edwina, and co. i dunno who else, but if you could please identify yourself to me, you'll be duly thanked. they told me to close my eyes, and i did, and when i woke up, all the guys were around me, in a darkened lecture theatre with nought but fishballs on satay sticks with a candle on it's end. and oh darn, the candles were those trick candles! there were twenty one of them too! great la dudes.

next, to those who organised the surprise party at jankee's place. the elaborate schemes of making me stay back to get tricks. you all should join the circus la. haha. these people are: jankee, joonheng, matthew, sengchye, and all the others who turned up to see me hesitantly cut the chocolate brownie cake.

to those who messaged from everywhere in the world, at twelve at night and throughout the day. thanks!

to those who made such a sweet card! (no, i didn't eat it, but it was still sweet okay) edwina again! and all the people who signed it!

lastly, to those who gave me stuffs! i got a six-pack (now half gone) courtesy of the apartment surprise gang, and a dunlop pick from sengchye. thanks in advance to lippie for the last book of the sandman trilogy, the endless nights, and to my dad, who is going guitar shopping with me on thursday. (muahahahaha. evil laughter)

and to 3SG Yeo Shi Yuan, Best Commander (August 2007) for Lion Company, Singapore Armed Forceps.

CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR ORD!!!

Oh Gosh

2007-11-05T02:21:00.000+08:00

oh, okay okay, i've neglected to update recently. i blame it on facebook. i'm busy fishing for pictures. nonono, don't look at me like that! at least i don't send my vampires and zombies or petrol stations (?) to attack other people right? haha.

anyway: last weekend, we went to Malacca to attend the rave party. havoc sia! it was a really great time. it was really good of anthony to bring us to his house and let us drink his booze (we have to pay him back....eventually) and crap in his toilets and dunk in the pool. party was big, widespread and muddy. all the way! silly shit larh.

they held 6 big concert stages, and the only available place to have it was in an open field, which the rain and heavy vehicles (like cranes) had turned into mud.

(damn, there's a lizard in my room.)

but it was good! we saw black hole and popshuvit, but we were completely sober. how can! so we left for dinner and then went home to get drunk! whoohoo. we had whisky and then we chugged the free heinikens. so, dazed and hazed, we entered.... things were a little blur after that larh.

anyway, on monday we had a performance for the NHSD closing ceremony. it's the national health sciences debate where IMU invites people to IMU to get trashed. we sang megalomaniac, time after time, by the way and be yourself. i think i pissed (on) the dean. he was sitting there with arms crossed, face like a pickle: sour.

oh thursday, wednesday, went out to joony's birthday dinner with the gang. shaowen and sheahlin. havoc. gosh. then went over to jankee's place where they got the birthday boy drunk. we left for "HASH BROWWNNSss" at four plus in the morning and i got stopped by the police and had a breathalyzer test. blood alcohol was: ZERO! wah, after 2 hours of stopping intake, then zero already? so proud sia.

on thursday, lipjeen's family brought me to eat at elcerdo. great stuff, and i was greatly stuffed too.

on friday, i went to the open house (or rather open apartment unit) by the malays in our batch. food was really good. so amazing.

on saturday, my dad brought me to an italian restaurant at the sheraton kl. greatly stuffed again.

today, diarrhoea.

2007-10-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

ohno, the time has come again. the time of cakes and songs and wishes and things in strings.

well well... knowing that there's a possibility that you're cracking your head thinking of what to get me. (i may be wrong! hahaha....) here's something to help you out.

my wishlist:

things that i want, but will never get:

1. bones that still have 2-3 years worth of growth left in them

2. a new voice box. 2nd hand, i don't mind. if possible get me brandon boyd's, or chris cornell's.

3. the mitsubishi lancer gsr (no, it's not a washing machine). i know the nissan gtr is coming out, but i think the lancer screams attitude.

4. fingers of lightning that will set fire to the fret board of the guitar.

5. more hours in a day and less things to do.

6. a better brain.

7. better song-writing skills.

things that i need:

1. a new bag.

2. a new pair of running shoes.

3. a nice bottle that doesn't drip.

things that i want:

1. an electric guitar. looking at a squier strat with a humbucker pickup.

2. a new game console: either a ps2, ps3, or xbox 360.

3. the CD Diorama, from silverchair.

4. clothes.

5. shoes.

6. a six-pack of 500ml heinikens.

7. a fishman acoustic guitar pickups.

8. an ipod with a bigger storage capacity.
9. a new guitar tuner. mine is shy, and will only pick up the sounds when noone is looking

10. a new guitar bag.

11. guitar picks.

so, there it is. i've got a mountain of stuff to do. i've got to prepare for osce practice tomorrow, i've gotta tidy up my room before i fool myself into thinking that i've stepped into a badly run pig sty. i've gotta get up early to get to IMU and print notes for the photocopying gang, i've got to pack along some clothes for wednesday's rugby (gasp) practice, and school, and last of all... i've got to study. oh gosh, someone kill me now. *cue the sad face: =(

Pee Bee Ale.

2007-10-29T09:58:00.000+08:00

oh gosh. luckilly my dear lippie woke me up this morning waaaay before school started. then i have time to do PBL (and to write this too, i suppose). thanks dear!

okay. see you all tonight!

quack.

La-la, La-la (Cockle Song)

2007-10-25T21:48:00.000+08:00

if you have ever asked me what i like doing, chances are, one of the things i said i liked was singing. that is if i wasn't in a kinky mood... but ask me if i like it today and i'll throw a resounding no in your face. maybe i'll hack and cough for a little emphasis too.

woah. today i have no lectures, but i had to go to school to perform 'hey there delilah' for the closing of the art competition. haha! i was so proud of my band! kelvin and seng chye took over the mic duties and i did the harmonies. for the first time in explosive diarrheoa's history, we had back-up singing. well, of course, seng chye decided wisely to cut short our performance by forgetting a whole verse and then we all fumbled at the end of the song. still, it wasn't a bad performance, and worse things have happened. like losing the AC supply to the multi-effects board when it is time for the guitar solo.

then we went to the music room to jam with ben lim, and then i had problem based learning, and then we had a wild goose chase for a llama, seng chye, and then we went jamming again! i'm gonna kill myself.

okay, bye. gonna scratch my sandfly bites and take a shower and then scratch my sandfly bites and then scratch my sandfly bites and then curse the sandflies and then swear and oath of vengence against the sandflies, and then finally realise that i wish i hadn't had skin, then maybe i won't itch and then i'll just go to sleep.

watch out malacca. lamer coming your way.

The Enemy: The Sandfly

2007-10-23T19:52:00.000+08:00

hi there gentle readers! looks like i've been MIA for quite some time already. well, the thing is i've been on holiday for the past week over hari raya, and i have been spending time at my mother's place (i blog almost exclusively at my dad's place) and then, i went to climb a mountain.

it was gunung liang east and west. do i hear you say, "isn't that two?" haha, well, the peak is a twin peak. the peaks have a height difference of about 8metres and are a 5min trek apart. so there you have it. it was in perak. somewhere between slim river and tanjung malim.

gah, i've got the overwhelming urge to back blog and tell you in excruciating detail of the whole climb, but well, if i blog too much, i'm not studying enough, so i won't. suffice to say that so far, this was the hardest mountain i've ever climbed la. the mountain must've been a female mountain, coz like all female twin peaks, this one was particularly hard to conquer. haha.

right now, my car stinks of dampness, coz the people i drove back from the mountain were all sopping wet when they stepped into my car. my clothes are a certain shade of brown, my legs are itching like madness thanks to the sandflies, and one of my toenails is infected. oh heaven.

anyway, i had five juniors in my group. le min, sophia, peggy, john and justin. haha. justin owes me a buck (or five) coz that guy was such a noobie to camping he didn't bring any instant noodles!!! only crackers. thankfully, i had an extra pack of five in the trunk of my elephant, just in case this kinda thing happened. oh, come one, the elephant thing was a joke. trunk of my car, okay? haha...

gotta eat a pear and tidy up my room. tomorrow i'll go the blood bank, where i find blood ties, blood feuds, blood EVERYTHING LARH!

goodbye world. for now.

Fly

2007-10-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

this is gonna be a long one. watch out. garh. i'm gonna rant and rave.

i'm currently having diarrhea, or dire rear as jon au puts it. gahz. i SMSed my girlfriend to tell her that.

i should have mesaged "heya, your boyfriend's stomach is threatening detach from the eosophagus and unravel inside-out into the toilet bowl" but what came out was this "heya dear. i think i just shitted out my liver. miss you." anticlimax? well, go break a leg.

speaking about missing people, there's a few people that i'm definitely going to miss, in more ways that one. i'm talking about my band. kelvin, seng chye, matthew and anthony and ben. all of them are going PMS! oh, you rich people, how can i not begrudge you for being rich when you leave me stranded here? i lament the death of my music 'career'.

i really want to get and electric guitar, and expand my abilties. you know, maybe someday i'll be like that snow patrol guy, what's his name again? ah hell.

but i've got a plan as soon as i'm in seremban, i'll go around the night clubs / pubs and see if they're interested in looking for a singer/songwriter (the last bit is still pending) and see if i can take my music from there.

oh sure, i could coach joonheng or lipjeen to play bass and keyboards in the band, but i dunno man. we'll see.

speaking of which, i should get down to penning some stuff to say. oh, yea yea, i know shakespear hates my emo poems and God kills a kitten everytime i write a stupid rhyme, but seeing that my body is full of aches, my heart is in tatters, my brain is busted, and my gut is having it's own protest march to the anus, i think this is the best time.

for it is said in the sandman,

"it is sometimes a mistake to climb; it is always a mistake to never even make the attempt. if you do not climb, you do not fall. this is true. but is it that hard to fail, that hard to fall? sometimes you wake, and sometimes, yes, you die. but there is a third alternative. sometimes when you fall, you fly."

so pen to paper, pedal to the metal and balls to the drawing board. here i come. fly.

Alive

2007-10-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

there's this very masochistic quote that jimmy printed out once on an infinity milers' flyer. me, lipjeen and jankee had a good laugh about it. it went something like:

somewhere in the world, somebody else is training when you are not. and when you race him, you will lose.

tell me you're not laughing your spleen out.

anyway, today, i ran four rounds around the bukit jalil park pond. parts of the pond smell differently. one portion is a-smell (no smell), one portion is normo-smellic (common pond smell), another portion is necro-smellic (something dead), some part is chloro-smellic (smell of algae) and if i'm not wrong there's a small part that's fish-o-smellic (oh, come on. use your brain.)

i also did about ten pullups! (sadly, not all at once...) and about 50 sit-ups. whoohoo. that can only mean one thing. that is tomorrow i will ache from head to toe. well, i didn't do a head workout or a toe exercise, but you get my drift.

i won't lie to you. i kinda like that lactic-acid muscle ache feeling. somehow it enhances the perception of self. it's like suddenly you're very aware of what you are doing, and every movement is intentional and controlled. well, mostly 'coz you're aching so much. but i can't help but feeling alive somewhat.

anyway. i once wrote here that everyday, i should do at least four things. eat a fruit (check! fruit: apple), study a little (check! before PBL today), exercise (check!) and do some music stuff...

i'm only left with one, lacking which i feel my day will be a little incomplete.

looks like it's time to bug the neighbours again.

chaioz!

Dear Jimmy

2007-10-08T02:16:00.000+08:00

well, our beloved club prez and good friend has sent us, the commitee members an email to tell us to be more united! well, techincally, i'm not part of the commitee, and even then i help out lorh....

well, guess i'm guilty by association then. what he said was true! but there's just one thing. we never signed up to be a part of the commitee and sold our soul to it as well. please understand that people have a lot of other things going on in their lives as well...

like always, i've got to tend to the disease of PBL (problem-based lanchiao, if you haven't guessed alr) and i've gotta write less.

every weekend i eargerly visit shi yuan's blog, but this time, he left so many personal details of his online. the identity thieves will have a field day if they find it.

signing off...

duckie.

EEE-YAH!!!

2007-10-06T13:25:00.000+08:00

eeeyah. goodness. it's a saturday afternoon and my darling abandoned me. (yes, that's
right, sob sob sob away....)

shit shit shit. i'm blogging on joon hengs laptop and his touch pad is so sensitive. has he been touching it a lot? eh eh eh...out of nowhere, it highlighted a whole portion of my text and sent it to hell. damn. so i'm typing a new part.

the sun is blazing in the sky. like someone sent a spaceship of steroids to the sun and kicked it into overdrive.

and joon heng beside me, just muttered "i feel like cutting my hair" same here la. gahz. i'm so bored. bored bored.

i want:

an electric guitar
an xbox 360 and halo 3
a new car, like the mitsubishi lancer gsr
new running shoes

where's a (rich) guardian angel when you need one.

Problem-Based Lanciao La!

2007-10-04T03:02:00.000+08:00

you know in my uni there's this thing called problem-based learning. basically, for a supposedly 'new approach to teaching' and encouraging 'life-long learning', we pay more and the people in the university work less.

i got back from training today. the juniors are very good actually. i manage to do three rounds of the lake under 7 minutes. shit man. this is bad. my target: by the end of the month, under 8minutes, for four rounds. my muscles were protesting so badly that i, as a responsible and a empathatic boss, had to declare emergency leave, and took a nap.

i got up at 12.30am and i was supposed to read up on anemias, but ended up looking for tabs of the interstate love song. damn nice. i had to screw around with a chord, coz the tabbers got it wrong. still, i'm not entirely convinced i've got it right. ask me to sing it for you one day. it's a smashing song.

okay. anemias are calling. somehow, feeling so free, in contrast with last week, feels so strange. studying feels somewhat familiar. oh no, IMU may eventually succeed in creating a 'life-long learner' in me after all. screw la.

Hiccough-Seng

2007-10-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

me, anthony and seng chye were doing some groccery shopping in carrefour after jamming tonight. and out of nowhere seng chye started hiccoughing!!

it was totally, totally hillarious man!!! hahaha...it was loud enough to be heard ten feet away. haha...anthony would give seng chye a shove, and see if he would stop....

and it did! seng chye goes, "eh, i think it worked laHICCOUGH!"

me and anthony were guffawing from between the aisles to the counters... haha...

Ouch...

2007-09-30T19:04:00.000+08:00

i was infected by meisze. so i'll try to get well, but the illness tells me to do this! help. i've done it before. but now i can't think of people fast enough. gosh, am i stupid or something.

just list 20 people on the top of your head, (if you don't mind them standing there in the first place)
read the questionaire and answer. only after you've put the names down, that is. so here is mine

1.mum
2.lipjeen
3.jimmy tee
4.teikzhen
5.yeekiat
6.ngeezheng
7.joonheng
8.jankee
9.debbie
10.matthew lee
11.blackie (kelvin)
12.jonathan au
13.mingwai
14.george bush
15.badawi
16.qadir
17.shiyuan
18.brandon boyd
19.flea
20.seng chye

1) How did you meet 14? (bush)
by our lovely invention! called the television. but i've had a bush of my own since i was about twelve i think. hahaha.

2) What would you do if you haven’t met no. 1? (mum)
half of me would be swimming around somewhere in her Fallopian tube, then discarded in the next period. my other half (as in the other half of me, not talking about lipjeen) be swimming in my father's epididymis before being abruptly flushed out somewhere.

3) What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? (debbie and seng chye)
it's not totally out of the question, actually. since they are housemates there's not issue of going back to who's place at the end of the date. "sorry darling, my parents are home" "EH, DUN BLUFF LA!"

4) Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? (ngee zheng and shi yuan)
no, but well, whatever rocks you boat man.

5) Describe no.3. (jimmy tee)
he's tall, he's dark, and (lo and behold, nothing to spoil the cliche) he's handsome. he runs like the wind, he is religious, (if the world wasn't so asian-phobic, he would be the pope), plays the guitar and drums...and he's available (i know you buggers were waiting for this)

6) Do you think no 8 is attractive? (jan kee)
yea, in his own way. what's not to like? but i know someone else who does too. just suffice to say if anything comes about from that, me and him could be related.

7) Tell me about no. 7. (joonheng)
he arh. well, he's a cute guy. haha. sometimes we just wanna kill him, cute as he is. don't be fooled. he's good a basketball and badminton.

8) Do you know anything bout no.12’s family? (jon au)
parents are dentists, live at usj 5, drive saabs, and sure as hell know how to raise a lame son.

9) What is no 8’s favourite? (jan kee)
mojitos

10) What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you? (blackie)
i'll sleep with the lights on. just in case you know.

11) What language does 15 speak? (badawi)
money. you greet people like this "yu tolong ai, ai tolong yu la, paham tak?"

12) Who is 9 going out with? (debbie)
mostly with the m206 bunch la. after all, she's been abandoned by her own. nevermind! she's always welcome to come along, with those dimples.

13) How old is 16 now? (qadir)
20. but he's stuck as a fire fighter in singapore.

14) When was the last time you talked to 13? (mingwai)
a few seconds ago. i'm in his room what...

15) No. 2’s fav singer? (lipjeen)
oh crap, i don't know.

16) Would you date no.18? (brandon boyd)
oh shit! i wanna say yes and no at the same time! just bring me to your jam sessions and you can show your tattoos to someone else.

17) Would you date 4? (Teik Zhen)
only if i wanna die laughing...

18) Is 15 single? (badawi)
nope. he snagged himself a bride recently. chi kuh peh.

19) What’s 10’s last name? (matthew lee)
what, noone taught you to read inside the brackets?

20) Would you ever consider being in a relationship with 11? (blackie)
maybe. if he just learns to take off my G-string, instead of twanging it, guitar-style.

21)What school does 3 go to? (jimmy tee)
whichever school is manly enough to take him on.

22)Where does 6 live? (ngee zheng)
in malacca. nice place, really, i've been there! fierce dog.

23) What’s your fav thing bout 5? (yee kiat)
funnily, his cursing. "mai koo liew, mai jeat!"

Tag: anyone la.

Back (No Longer A Testee)

2007-09-30T18:47:00.000+08:00

(that's my brother reflected in the mirror behind me)

i'm back!!! the test is over. hope i passed.

anyway, me and quite a number of ppl went over to lipjeen's place yesterday to celebrate her birthday:

myself, evelyn, edwina, joon heng, jan kee, mervin wong pak ming, suisse, sarah yuen, huiling, debbie lee, sengchye, and jian min went over to her place. we bought a cake and sang and made a lot of noise. haha...quite fun!

thank you so much for coming! it meant a lot to me! serious! and special thanks to joon heng for going out on a limb to buy a cake for lipjeen. the sunflowers took up my time.

God is good.

Back

2007-09-28T00:57:00.001+08:00

sometimes, i wonder if it is all worth it...

I Turn Around Today

2007-09-24T22:32:00.000+08:00

there's to no time for games anymore. neither is there for blogging. on thursday is my summative exams. and on saturday is lipjeen's birthday. (get her a new wallet if you wanna know what she needs)

it's strange how we can be so close and so far. i miss you dearie.

i'll bite the bullet for you. i just wish i knew how.

I'm Getting Older (and Fatter Too...)

2007-09-24T02:10:00.000+08:00

(L-R: ben tan, yee kiat, kien ji, teck leong, teik zhen, wan xin, yi juin, eng tze and me)

that day teik zhen sent me an email. it was mine! i wrote it to thank those who signed on my birthday card back in 2003. he had it all along and was going through the junk in his inbox and decided to re-send it. well well well! haha. i haven't forgotten about you all either, my friends. that's right, ship or no ship.

i dug around in my closet today, and this is what i found. haha. sorry. no picture of ngee zheng. dunno what happened to him that day. it was at marche under hmv at the heeren shopping centre along orchard road. it's gone now (marche, not the complex), but oh well.

the amazing thing is, given my extremely short, contorted and horrible memory, in that picture, i remember everybody's date of birth!

just test me!

ben tan: july 13

yee kiat: december 7

kien ji: january 28

teck leong: march 30

teik zhen: april 4

wan xin: (see ben tan)

yi juin: (not too sure, but i think it's november 17)

eng tze: september 27

me: ...erh... (wait, WAIT! i remember....november.....15th??? or was it 20th? erh...)

AWW SHUCKS, NOT AGAIN!!!!

just for completeness sake:

ngee zheng: september 26

moses han: april 1

Pain, Pain, Go Away

2007-09-23T18:10:00.000+08:00

what a wonderfully screwed and miserable day. gosh. anyway, it has been raining like nothing here in ampang. supposed to be studying but i'm getting way too distracted. i came online, and, lo and behold! i've got a number of new visitors to my blog! welcome you all!

(feels a bit weird though. like i'm a party host or something)

me and my brother wanted to play basketball in the evening, but it rained, so, cancel larh.

back to mugging. getting off my lazy bum, back to utilising my under-utilised brain, and back to trying to actually remember something. propranolol is a beta adrenagic antagonist.

Mug-mug-mug

2007-09-22T13:06:00.000+08:00

whoa, this is depressing. we are all studying for the upcoming summative examinations. cardiovascular system (heart and vessels) and respiratory system (lungs and airway).

it's a saturday and i'm stuck at home. i ain't doing nothing. just slacking around. gahz.

hate it hate it hate it hate it! can't blog too much. bye.

Psh.

2007-09-15T01:04:00.000+08:00

do you ever have those days? in which everything begins with good intentions. like studying! or writing something nice! or going for a run! or sleeping less!

but NOOOO! cruel fate always seems to throw a curveball at us. jams all the clockwork that's supposed to make us better human beings. it tests my (or rather lack of) discipline. that's right. D, I-fucking-SCIPLINE. oh how am i gonna be a good doctor if i do not study???

help. let me illustrate why your eyes had to tread over the shards of my ranting and cursing. i bought this silly little book from the summit called the cider house rules. and, damn am i hooked or what?

well, on the flipside, it is quite funny. it's about this orphanage in a rural wood-sy town in maine. and there's this kid called homer wells. anyway, there's a girl in the story too, called melony! hahaha! i was like what the....?

she was supposed to be melody, but turned out to be melony because of a typo. and as the author wrote,

"the mistyping was a fortunate mistake, actually, because there was nothing melodious about that girl. she was about sixteen (no one really knew her exact age), and there was in the fullness of her breasts and in the roundness of her bottom very much the suggestion of melons"

then there's this part where the main guy gets kinda taken for a trial adoption by a very outdoor-sy couple. think jimmy tee and erh, a female version of him. they go camping a lot so, owing to their busy schedules, the orphanage doc concluded that they haven't been able to successfully concieve. so anyway they take this kid for a camping trip to see a moose. and one morning the orphan wakes up to grunts which he thought was a moose, but...

"if dr larch would have been present, he might have drawn new conclusions concerning the winkles' inability to produce offspring. he would have concluded that the violent athlethicism of their coupling simply destroyed, or scared to death, every available egg and sperm"

hahaha, dammit, i laughed man. great book. my pleasant distraction.

Perfection: How Depressing

2007-09-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

early tonight i caught what was about half and hour of Bewitched, nicole kidman's movie, which is a total flop. it was on HBO. if it weren't i wouldn't bother peeling my eyelids for it.

this, coupled with snippets i watch from channel 76 of astro, or E!, i have to conclude that she's one of the most elegant people in showbusiness. every red carpet appearance she dazzles, every movie she looks perfect. how can sia? it's crazy! how can someone look so proper all the time? i can only imagine what this kinda thing does for the girls self esteem. haha, even worse: the victoria secret fashion show. haha.

i mean, russell crowe, johnny depp and all colin farrell all turn into regular joes outside the movies, sometimes even on the red carpet. so, hah! the dog are keeping it real.

ladies, you can catfight all the way up that ladder to perfection.

Shoot Me

2007-09-11T17:17:00.000+08:00

i would be the first person to tell you that i'm an unworthy boyfriend. it's true! i know, when people look at me, jovial, upbeat, and what-not, they think i will be a great boyfriend. but that's not true. my girlfriend would know. even then there are some things that i do know.

fellas, tell your gal that she's gorgeous, or if not, attractive. that's why you dig her anyway right?

a compliment every now and then will probably make for a much more pleasant relationship.

fellas, some times, you just have to bite the bullet, douse your ego and apologise first. for the greater good.

so here's to you, and your sweet smile: today you looked gorgeous, and sweet and cute, and i'll bite the bullet for you. you can love me with an ak47 and i'll still come back for more.

cheerio!

I Miss These Guys

2007-09-11T03:04:00.000+08:00

L-R (back row): qadir, faizal, salman, and shi yuan

L-R (front row): aini, fairuz, engtze, myself, cheehau (with soft toy) and venkat (with bolster)

you know i've got this junior of mine in the newest M207 intake in IMU. his name is eric. anyway, i kinda thought about my friends all back in VJC. well, that guy with the bolster there, venkat, is that anomaly larh.

i managed to fish these pics from my ampang house computer to my laptop, since i do all my blogging and word processing and time-wasting here anyway. so yeah.

vi-ictoria in singapore, there are other schools we know - kinda corny for the first line of the school song, right, but anyways.

Charity Run: The Aftermath

2007-09-10T01:31:00.000+08:00

it's sunday night now. i just got back from my mum's place, and now i'm at my dad's place, typing this away. i'm wathing a rugby match between scotland and portugal.

seriously man, rugby is so much more interesting than soccer. it's more tactical, less due to chance, and the players aren't wimps. they aren't actors that were too ugly to hire, no matter how good they were at acting. they are seriously really strong, fit and fast. monsters, nothing less. no matter how much body contact they take, they don't cry out for their mothers to come back from the grave and nurse them. they just get back up and go for more! either that, or they limp off.

anyway, yesterday the charity run carnival ended! for good!!! whoohoo! after a lot of carrying tables and chairs, collecting coupons, counting coupons, and choking on coupons... it's all over!! whoohoo!

and to show for it, i have a bright, eye-hurting orange tee, and... A RETURN TRIP BY AIR TO JAKARTA! lucky draw, dudes! how's that for luck eh? on top of that, i won a toaster too!
ah, i've got to get up at seven to get to university by eight for my Clinical Skills Unit lessons.

a storm rumbles on...

Charity Run

2007-09-08T00:56:00.000+08:00

tomorrow is the IMU Charity Run & Carnival!!! time to take out those old running shoes, or break in a new pair!!

IT'S GONNA BE A SMASHING TIME! LOADS OF PEOPLE! STALLS FROM OUT OF THIS WORLD (actually only out of sri petaling), AND OF COURSE, A CHALLENGING AND A FUN, FUN, FUN RUN!!!

(big deal).

anyway...i've got to be at the coupons booth, selling drinks. no, i'm kidding. i'll be selling coupons. drinks will be sold at the drinks stall, you moron.

good night, everyone! i've gotta wake up early to help some guys set up the place. see you, and rock on!

Shuffle

2007-09-06T16:05:00.001+08:00

okay, i'm not usually one for the surveys, but i saw this on Nisha's blog and i couldn't resist! so here we go. the few simple rules are..

1. Put your music player on shuffle.

2. Press forward for each question.

3. Use the song title as the answer to each question.

4. NO CHEATING.

1. How am I feeling today?

Shuffle says: bullet proof... i wish i was - radiohead
Comment: yeah, it's true! i had a problem-based learning session, and i got shot down! but well, i deserved it.

2. Where will I get married?
Shuffle says: impress them - lo
Comment: heh! you buggers didn't think i'd get married in the end eh?? well? impressive enough for you??

3. What is my best friend's theme song?
Shuffle says: keep the dream alive - oasis
Comment: yup yup! it's true. they all dream to go and do great and wonderful things.

4. What was high school like?
Shuffle says: constellations - jack johnson
Comment: well, well, whaddaya know!? the sports houses back in JC were all named after constellations. ursa, phoenix, lynx, draco, pegasus... i think... haha...

5. What is the best thing about me?
Shuffle says: the ghost of you - my chemical romance
Comment: hahahaha!!! damn la. i knew you buggers were all waiting for me to kick the bucket.

6. How is today going to be?
Shuffle says: billy brown - mika
Comment: "then billy brown fell in love with another man" ohno. not good, not good....

7. What is in store for this weekend?
Shuffle says: naked sunday - stone temple pilots
Comment: i'm not faking this!!! oh goodness! yeay!!! a naked sunday. yessssiiiirrrRRR!!!

8. What song describes my parents?
Shuffle says: shine - muse
Comment: well, i wonder if it's because my dad's losing hair and gaining more forehead?

9. How is my life going?
Shuffle says: vertigo - u2
Comment: whoo!! right'o! it's dizzying yeah.

10. What song will they play at my funeral?

Shuffle says: bad day - R.E.M.

Comment: "shit so thick you can stir with a stick". haha, it would be a bad day indeed. =)

11. How does the world see me?
Shuffle says: writing to reach you - travis
Comment: okay, okay, i get it. they don't wanna 'see me' per se. they write instead...

12. What do my friends really think of me?
Shuffle says: only wanna be with you - hootie & the blowfish
Comment: really? whoohoo! that's plenty of fun then! =)

13. Do people secretly lust after me?
Shuffle says: more matey - keane
Comment: bring it ON!!!

14. How can I make myself happy?
Shuffle says: walking away - lifehouse
Comment: ohno. i have to walk away from her?? nonono, ohno.

15. What should I do with my life?
Shuffle says: nebula - incubus
Comment: what?? i don't get it. should i go to space, stare at the stars, become a rockstar or spontaneously combust?

16. Will I ever have children?
Shuffle says: strip my mind - red hot chili peppers
Comment: yep. maybe you'll find the answer in the deep, guttaral subconscious. right now i'm not so sure. (i mean, i am capable, just haven't come to a conclusion yet)

17. What is some good advice?
Shuffle says: dumb love - stone temple pilots
Comment: spot on, mr survey. love is freaking dumb sometimes.

18. What do I think my current theme song is?
Shuffle says: how to be dead - snow patrol
Comment: oh, come on! so morbid!!

19. What does everyone else think about my current life?
Shuffle says: still running - lo
Comment: yeah, see, Question18! i'm still running!

20. What type of women do you like?
Shuffle says: freak - silverchair
Comment: yeay! funky shit! shall i go after that green haired one? or the one who plays poker with her toes??

21. Will you get married?
Shuffle says: in bloom - nirvana
Comment: this song is about puberty and discovering sexuality. go figure.

22. What should I do with my love life?
Shuffle says: nobody knows you when you're down and out - eric clapton
Comment: when i'm down, sometimes, only she can turn things around. love you!

23. Where will you live?

Shuffle says: numb - linkin park
Comment: erh? in a sore limb? don't get it, don't get it, mister survey sir.

24. What will your dying words be?
Shuffle says: privelege - incubus
Comment: ah, i always thought i'd threaten my relatives to come back and haunt them. anyway, it's true. i think living is a privelege. good on ya!

25. When I'm having sex, I say...
Shuffle says: we are the champions - queen
Comment: whoa. major shit. how la hwei. if i do, i think that'll be the last time i get laid. i would have to resort to crawling up a chicken's ass and waiting to get laid.

26. When I meet a guy/girl for the first time I say...

Shuffle says: space dementia - muse

Comment: "space dementia!!!! goooobBBLE GAAABBBLE HOOT HOOTT!!!!" what a way to impress the ladies.

27. When my parents are angry I say...

Shuffle says: yahweh - u2

Comment: yahweh means God. this survey is absolutely right. i will definitely say "OH MY GOD!!!"

Wine and Dine

2007-09-06T00:34:00.000+08:00

so....

do you wanna know what a bachelor's dinner looks like??? i'm practically living on my own here in subang. i'm independent, and i'm proud of it. i renew my own road tax, i go and get my car fixed on my own, i find my way around KL on my own, (most of the time), and i taught myself guitar! (okay, so that was a bit unrelated.)

my father didn't come back for dinner, and i had no reason to expect him to.

anyway, i just went for a run at ten at night. 6 rounds of the playground in front of my house. i came back, and i fixed myself a simple dinner.

here it is!

(clockwise from mug with the heart): orange juice, apple, low fat milk, isotonic drink, plate of bread, cheese, mustard and frankfurters, and a plum.

not bad eh?

LACTOSE INTOLERANCE BE DAMNED!

Dream On, Dude.

2007-09-05T09:55:00.000+08:00

hi there!!! to all of you who happen to be reading my blog.

i don't know if any of you have found it. was it hard? i haven't tried googling for my own blog, (that's just too self-conscious, isn't it?) anyway.

i just wanted to share some thoughts.

i want a new car. gahz! as of right now, i want the new mitsubishi lancer. it isn't the evolution version yet, just the road-going version, but it's quite sleek. here's a pic.

it has paddle shifters! haha. or the new civic type r version! great value. 222hp at rm200k. shit. why am i thinking of all this? i'm just a lowly medical student. i'm noone special. who'll give me money to buy a car??? my dad already coughed up rm20k for my kia, so, no chances of getting a new one. i thought i'd make a bet with him the other day. if i managed to get As for all the coming exams, will i get a new lancer? haha, but even the blurest guy in m206 (me) know's that this is impossible. gahz.

if i had all the money in the world, i'd like to get a sports car, preferably one with the top down (yum-yum)... no eye on the exact model yet, but...

otherwise, it's the '68 mustang. this car screams ATTITUDE!!!! check out the back. they don't call it a fastback for nothing dudes.

Curses

2007-09-04T01:53:00.000+08:00

life is going on great at the moment. i just wished i was part of something bigger. no, guys, this isn't a call for you evangalists to come a talk to me. just well... it feels like the world's a stage. i'm part of something bigger, better, something more out there.

ffffffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuucccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!! garrrrrgh...

maybe i should go and beat up someone.

Where There is Life, There is...

2007-08-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

hi. it's been a weekend and a day since i've last blogged. first and foremost, the happy things. things we can celebrate without giving excuses to others if you aren't crying.

here goes:
HAPPY BIRTDAY SHI YUAN AND QADIR!!!

their birthdays fall on the 24th and the 25th, respectively. they both turn twenty, and join the gang of older kids. many happy returns my good friends.
on saturday, me and lipjeen were having lunch. we had bought tickets to the show perfect stranger (halle berry and bruce willis), which would screen after our makan. then i got an sms from my dad telling me that my grandmother had died.

so it happened. it feels so surreal. i've been expecting this for quite sometime already, but now, it feels...strange. somehow disjointed. it was as if my dead grandmother was right in front of me and i was on mars.

i forgo-ed (or forwent, whatever) the movie and i went over to fetch my brother (i called him. i said, "grandma's dead". "huh?? serious arh???"). we went to the nursing home. i was the last person there before the funeral parlour took her away. she looked like she was sleeping, but she was so still. so still. i still can see her. pale skin, mouth agape... i don't know how to handle this. my dad had red eyes. i was going "ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh" in my head, 'coz i didn't know what to say or do. finally. i spent some time alone with my dead grandmother. said a prayer, and said my last goodbye.

the funeral parlour people took her out in a stretcher, under a folded shroud and my father struggled to stiffle a big sob, i was like "OHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSH" what do i do?

anyway, i went back that night.

i've spent sunday and monday at the wake at the funeral parlour.
on sunday lip jeen, jan kee, seng chye, kuan ken, jimmy tee, jeremy cheah, and abiramy came to visit. it was very nice of them. a great gesture of friendship and respect. thank you my friends.

it is now eleven pm on monday. tomorrow there will be a short service, and i have to go up and say something. oh well, oh well.

cya around. i still have to go and get my goth clothes, etc for wednesday. i'm going mad. tahz.

Lessons from Maison's

2007-08-25T03:32:00.000+08:00

we went to puisan's birthday party at maisons, and my first thought was "IT'S SO VOID OF PEOPLE!!!" the last time i went, it was a thursday night. the smart buggers designate that ladies' night and let all the gals in free. even on this night, a friday night. (at this point my brain nudged me and popped a qns in "then how about ah-guas and tomboys?")

anw, we had a really good time. i didn't get drunk. in fact, i hardly drank anything. just the mixers only.

i learnt a few things there, which i will not repeat, but of those that i can, here are a few:

1. mastura will be the life of your party. take her clubbing.
2. sarah is damn shy at the club.
3. maison's plays a really fucked techno version of blur's song 2, but we still headbang to it anyway.
4. you'll have a better time if you go clubbing in a big bunch of people
5. ask your friends to bring their friends, who bring their friends, etc..
6. chong beng is a pimp.
7. seng chye, aiseh... a real ladies' man.
8. praveena will stay put unless the music really kicks her into action.
9. jan kee's face can get cramped up from smiling too much.

okay okay.

going to sleep now. or shall get scolding from my dear tmr for turning up late...

I Hate Thinking Up Titles

2007-08-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

ah. today, at eleven am (zzz...) i was woken up by my cousin meisze. she was worried that my grandma may pass away. like what seng chye said: a passing now would be a blessed release for her. i agree. poor thing.

sometime i really wonder. what is it like to be her. are you awake, but trapped inside your own body? or does your awareness fade altogether? i think therefore i am. so if i have no thoughts in my head, no spark of emotion, am i alive? i don't even know if i am breathing. i don't know if anyone pried my eyes open to drip eyedrops in.

anyway. on a lighter note, we went jamming today, and it was really good!
we chose our three main songs for finale night. and are going to prepare two more (just in case).

we also had to choose a name for our band. we nearly chose this name called "drink drank drunk, ta-DAH!!!" we initially stopped at "drink drank drunk" but we wanted to dedicate a syllable to every band member (we have five) so hence the "ta-DAH!!!" at the end. hahaha....

the story goes: when we announce that name, we would have to point to each person and say one of the syllables so it went like this:

"drink..." kelvin
"drank..." anthony (the first two name assignments were for no apparent reason, but...)
"drunk..." sengchye ('CAUSE HE'S ALWAYS ACTING DRUNK AND ALL....)
"ta-DAH!!!" me and matthew. (again, for no apparent reason)

i think sengchyes face was so funny at the time this idea was concieved that kelvin laughed till he teared...(as in had tears in his eyes. he didn't get torn apart)

we didn't choose that name anyway.

my voice is in a bad shape now. it's all horse (haha)... but oh well...

and matthew's body shampoo is in the boot of my car! that's his problem, but if he smells funny next week... let me know ok? because by then it would be our problem too.

tahz! gonna go to puisan's birthday party at maison's... i don't feel like going clubbing, but ohwell...nevermind la...i won't drink. my liver needs a break (and a brake).

as for what i resolved to do everyday, today i have had:
no studies
no exercise
no fruits (only a juice)
but i DID sing!

Darlie

2007-08-24T01:30:00.000+08:00

okay...

it was the first real day of orientation. me and jonathan au ran a station, station 5.we chose 7 people from each group. each of them competed against another member of the opposing team in a staring competition. the loser had toothpaste on his face. and i think we did a pretty good job too! right jonathan!!!

noone really died of toothpaste. noone is allergic to toothpastes. (well, among the juniors at least. surprisingly some of our batchmates are! you wipe your teeth at night i guess)

i had toothpaste all over me though, and that's besides the point. that jonathan got a little fed up with one of the groups ("this is not the way to compete ok!"), and that i snapped at whoever squirted me with a water gun as i was busy trying to be a vigilant umpire ("don't squirt la, FUCK!") is besides the point. we had fun, and i hoped the juniors did too. bailed early to eat a burger ayam special (ran back to ask lippie if she wanted one too coz i forgot) and went home.

well well...

i've had enough of bumming around. i wanna do three things everyday:
1. study (even a little)
2. exercise (conditions similar to above)
3. eat a fruit or eat fruits (some vitamins)
4. play guitar, sing, or write. just something musical.

oh hell, that's four things. bugger.

hahaha.

cheers guys.

How sia???

2007-08-23T02:18:00.000+08:00

i visitted my grandmother today at the nursing home. after braving through an hour and a half of traffic. i managed to get there at 9pm. the last i saw her was on saturday afternoon, and even then the deterioration was apparent. i just realised that i'm not ready to deal with all this. i have not been through a death, or a loss. i don't know how to handle it. are the funeral arrangements made? what are the rituals? what do we do to pay our last respects? to send someone off with love... how sia??????

my maternal grandma died like...i dunno...15 years ago? i don't remember. oh well, i didn't really get to know her. she had a temper and she didn't talk to me. coz i didn't know cantonese. anyway....it's all too different now.

i talk to my grandma, the occasional jest and sometimes kidding with her too. i played and sang a few songs for her on saturday. how will my grandfather cope?? (he has gravitational edema. he complained to me about swelling legs) he's been at her side so strong for the past few months. so i dunno man...it's one big uncharted territory for me.

another rite of passage, another growing pain.

oh well. oh well....

Trouble

2007-08-22T16:51:00.000+08:00

i realised something...

i pull out the tabs on all my canned drinks. they will like go to collection to get some needy kid a wheelchair or something. then i rinse the cans and i flatten them. i was just counting how many cans i had left, and i realised something. the ratio of carlsberg to 100plus cans were 0.75:1 which means for every 4 cans of 100plus i've drank, i would've drank 3 carlsbergs. ohno. not good, definitely not good.

and i hear thunder rumbling in the distance. haiz.

Mosquito

2007-08-22T03:30:00.000+08:00

screw you la mosquito!!! i'm reading ppl's blogs late at night, adn there's an idiot flying around. biting my arms, my legs. thanks a mil you idiot.

Love and Other Things

2007-08-22T02:19:00.000+08:00

here i am. typing a post... why do i feel so empty?

i'm sick. sore throat. cough. flu. the whole shebang. it sucks big time. spent the whole day at home doing nothing streneous. i did do about 5 pull-ups though, and that was my limit. pathetic.

anyway, here's some random musing coming your way...

i wish i could write a song. a simple one, with poignant and meaningful lyrics. but it's just so hard. everytime i come up with something, the melody just bores me to death. it's so horrible i would just die, and that's before i get to talking about the silly things i write. i mean, what is it with rhyming??? gahh!!! i wish i could write like coldplay. well, in their first album. 'trouble' was special. they hardly ever needed to rhyme to make it sound cool. you get in the zone with that song, and you'll understand me.

i wish i could spend some time with lipjeen. i was hoping so hard that i would be well enough to go out with her. just to chill. but she's going to see a movie with her sister. so it's ok. she told me way beforehand, so there were no fireworks. i'm not afraid to say that i love her. i do. i just don't know why we fight. it's all my ego. damn. damn it to hell. i had an epiphany once (nothing to do with bananas and potassium)... i wondered why we fight with all those who are closest to us. people all around us quarrel with their partners, their parents, and siblings. for those of you who are quicker than i, it's because they still care. the reason why me and lipjeen have bad days, like any other couple, is 'coz i still care and she still cares.

here's a passage about love. i got it from the sandman volume nine. the comic is about seven aspects of the universe personified. Destiny, Death, Dream, Destruction, Despair, Desire, and Delirium (formerly Delight).
anyway, in this issue rose walker talks to Desire, her grandmother. sort of.
Rose says,
"Love... Have you ever been in love?"
"You might say that."
"Horrible, isn't it?"
"In what way?"
"It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens you heart and it means someone can get inside of you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you. They don't wask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore."

it's true, isn't it? =) writing at it's best. for the whole passage, go read the comic.

okay. going off to sleep now. maybe i'll just give that guitar a little good night twanging.